The weather has been so nice. Like REALLY nice and we are at the end of October, but the past two days it's been raining which brought the cold weather and I'm fighting a cold--the 3rd, 4th, or 5th cold I've had this year. I've never been so sick in my life. This is a testament to me not taking care of myself and not sleeping well.
But, all of that is going to change because as the weather is turning, so is my life!
I'm meeting with a financial consultant on Monday to help me with my finances--I need $5000 in 60 days to buy my house.
I'm looking at changing my schedule so that I can work out at least 30 minutes a day. And I'm praying and reading my word more. Not as much as I like, but I'm making strides.
I went to the movies to watch The Intern. It was such a cute movie, but I didn't realize that it was a "date-night" movie. I thought it was about the old guy, it turns out to be about the young girl and her life and love. Dag....I felt sappy in the theater all by myself. The feeling didn't last long, but it was there....
Hopefully, those lonely dates won't be for to much longer!
Thursday, October 29, 2015
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Don't Mess With My Money
I just got paid today...and I was shocked!!! My check was short. Daaaannnnggggggg....
I looked up my paystub to find that there was an IW offset of $560. WHAT IS THAT????? I emailed my boss because I know the state of Illinois is going through some issues, but what does that mean--IW offset?? So I googled and as always (most of the time) google has answered my questions.
Because I am a state of Illinois employee, any money that I owe to a state agency can be deducted from my paycheck. Case in point--summer tuition. I took a summer class at the U of I (stupid economics) and the tuition was about $1300 and I hate bills like that so I hadn't set up a payment plan and I was paying it off, but I guess not fast enough, so that state just took the last of the money that was owed--$560.
Man, I had plans for that money. But, I'm happy it's paid off. Now I can sigh up for class in the spring and I can set up a payment plan so that this doesn't happen again.
I looked up my paystub to find that there was an IW offset of $560. WHAT IS THAT????? I emailed my boss because I know the state of Illinois is going through some issues, but what does that mean--IW offset?? So I googled and as always (most of the time) google has answered my questions.
Because I am a state of Illinois employee, any money that I owe to a state agency can be deducted from my paycheck. Case in point--summer tuition. I took a summer class at the U of I (stupid economics) and the tuition was about $1300 and I hate bills like that so I hadn't set up a payment plan and I was paying it off, but I guess not fast enough, so that state just took the last of the money that was owed--$560.
Man, I had plans for that money. But, I'm happy it's paid off. Now I can sigh up for class in the spring and I can set up a payment plan so that this doesn't happen again.
Tuesday, October 27, 2015
Business Planning
I'm working on a business plan and I'm so excited. It is a challenge, but I'm using sba.gov!!
Monday, October 26, 2015
My Other Vision
And the LORD
answered me: “Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who
reads it. Habakkuk 2:2
The other thing that came to me as the man of God was
ministering was a wall in my house that has a canvas on it that is as large as
the wall and on the canvas there is a picture that depicts "The
Journey."
"The Journey" is from childhood to the end. And
it depicts specific times in my life.
I'll have "The Journey" on my child's room wall
too when he or she is born and this will help to keep him or her focused on
their purpose in life.
Now I gotta find a huge canvas.....
The Mind is POWERFUL
God gave me something a few years ago and I didn't know what to do with it....
Life is a journey and I know that sounds cliche, but it is true. What matters most is not the destination, but what you do during the journey.
In 2011 I was telling a friend that I would be helping businesses to build their business. Not realize that this is what God put into my spirit. A few years ago, the spirit of God rested upon me as I was talking to someone and I was telling them that we needed to be connected to a certain business man in the city. At the time I didn't know what to do with the information. I know the spirit of God was with me, but I was foggy. Nothing was clear.
Well, now I have more clarity.
This business man funded my job when I was teaching career development and I was trained in this business of helping young people to find their careers. And now the pieces are coming together. I couldn't see the vision in my mind before, but now I see it.
I'm going to start a business and use it as a career development program.
I'm going to see if NC guy will help me with a business plan.
Life is a journey and I know that sounds cliche, but it is true. What matters most is not the destination, but what you do during the journey.
In 2011 I was telling a friend that I would be helping businesses to build their business. Not realize that this is what God put into my spirit. A few years ago, the spirit of God rested upon me as I was talking to someone and I was telling them that we needed to be connected to a certain business man in the city. At the time I didn't know what to do with the information. I know the spirit of God was with me, but I was foggy. Nothing was clear.
Well, now I have more clarity.
This business man funded my job when I was teaching career development and I was trained in this business of helping young people to find their careers. And now the pieces are coming together. I couldn't see the vision in my mind before, but now I see it.
I'm going to start a business and use it as a career development program.
I'm going to see if NC guy will help me with a business plan.
Friday, October 23, 2015
True Colors Shining Through
I'm talking to NC guy on the phone and his true colors are SHINING through!
He's cursing up a storm talking about his past. It's like he's flashing back to his younger days. What happened to the renewed mind? I guess I understand it, but dag...I think he was misrepresenting himself when we first met. Not one curse word came out of his mouth, but now almost a month later he's flashing back to pain in his childhood. God, what am I supposed to do with this?
He's cursing up a storm talking about his past. It's like he's flashing back to his younger days. What happened to the renewed mind? I guess I understand it, but dag...I think he was misrepresenting himself when we first met. Not one curse word came out of his mouth, but now almost a month later he's flashing back to pain in his childhood. God, what am I supposed to do with this?
Thursday, October 22, 2015
4 Significant Spiritual Moments
I was in a leadership meeting at church on Monday night and as we were praying there was a prayer for the children and then it was said, that there were women who were there who were not married and did not have any children who would be married and who would have children and as that was being prayed, I felt the spirit of God in my belly. It's kind of hard to explain, but there is a scripture that says that "out of the belly shall blow rivers of living water," (John 7:38). So, I felt "life" in my belly as he was praying and I didn't want to get emotional because I always want to respond to God out of my spirit and not out of my emotions because emotionalism is temporal.
This was God speaking to me and I thank Him. As I was thinking about this I started thinking about a few other significant spiritual moments in my walk with Christ. There are way more that I'm going to share, but these stick out....
I was in service on a Sunday morning and the prayer was going forth at the end and as I was praying, I felt a BURST in my mid-section. I was simply praying and there was a BURSTing feeling. I don't know what it was, but I just yelled in praise to God because it felt like something had broken off my life.
Another time, I was in a meeting and I was talking about a program that I wanted to do in the church and as I was talking, I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit descend upon. It just rested on me as I was talking. And the Prophetess saw the spirit of God upon me and she said as I finished talking, "You are anointed to do that." I knew she saw what I felt. This was in 2012.
About a year later I was talking to someone in the office at the church and I was talking about he we could get funding for a project and I mentioned D'Ambrose and our representative Scherer and as I was talking the spirit of God descended upon me just as it had done before. And I knew that I was anointed to carryout that plan.
No one can take these experiences away from me... and I take God for physically manifesting himself in my life!!
This was God speaking to me and I thank Him. As I was thinking about this I started thinking about a few other significant spiritual moments in my walk with Christ. There are way more that I'm going to share, but these stick out....
I was in service on a Sunday morning and the prayer was going forth at the end and as I was praying, I felt a BURST in my mid-section. I was simply praying and there was a BURSTing feeling. I don't know what it was, but I just yelled in praise to God because it felt like something had broken off my life.
Another time, I was in a meeting and I was talking about a program that I wanted to do in the church and as I was talking, I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit descend upon. It just rested on me as I was talking. And the Prophetess saw the spirit of God upon me and she said as I finished talking, "You are anointed to do that." I knew she saw what I felt. This was in 2012.
About a year later I was talking to someone in the office at the church and I was talking about he we could get funding for a project and I mentioned D'Ambrose and our representative Scherer and as I was talking the spirit of God descended upon me just as it had done before. And I knew that I was anointed to carryout that plan.
No one can take these experiences away from me... and I take God for physically manifesting himself in my life!!
The POWER Of The Mind
I've always been skeptical when I hear the stories of women who were pregnant for 9 months and they had no idea. I mean, I've been pregnant and any woman can tell you that when you are pregnant, you change...not only that, you feel the baby on the inside moving. So how can someone go 9 months and feel nothing at all.
THE POWER OF THE MIND!!
They are convinced in their mind that there is nothing different in their life.
But, I was skeptical until I listened to a story on This American Life about a women who would swallow objects. She was about 11 years old and she was having trouble and was sent away to a mental institution. Inside she was placed in a small room with only a mattress. For some reason there was a nail in the room and when she saw it, she hid it and the first thing that came to her mind was "swallow it." And so she did and from there, she just had compulsive obsessions to swallow objects--forks, knives, nails, pencils, pens and even a radio antennae that caused her to be put into a coma so that doctors could figure out how to get it out because it lodged in her brain when she sneezed while swallowing it. This woman had had so many surgeries and medical procedures from swallowing objects and it all based upon what she though--WHAT HER MIND TOLD HER!! She thought that if she didn't swallow the objects, she would die or her mother would die.
It wasn't until she was 22 that she was finally able to get the help she needed.
As I finished listening the Holy Spirit was just letting me know that the mind is so POWERFUL!! I've heard often that as the mind goes, so does the body....So, this is why I MUST renew my mind in Christ. I can no longer think in bondage to my past. When I accepted Christ I became a new CREATION, but my mind must be renewed EVERYDAY so that I can live a healthy, Godly life!!
I thank God for helping me!!
Then I started thinking about my heart because the Bible says that we must guard our heart and our heart deals with our emotions. We can think one thing, but feel one thing. R. Kelly used to say, "my mind is telling me no, but my body is telling me yes..." Our mind can say one thing and our body and our heart can say something else and we need to know which one to follow. When we accept Christ, we follow our spirit and we only do that when we are renewed in the spirit of our mind.
THE POWER OF THE MIND!!
They are convinced in their mind that there is nothing different in their life.
But, I was skeptical until I listened to a story on This American Life about a women who would swallow objects. She was about 11 years old and she was having trouble and was sent away to a mental institution. Inside she was placed in a small room with only a mattress. For some reason there was a nail in the room and when she saw it, she hid it and the first thing that came to her mind was "swallow it." And so she did and from there, she just had compulsive obsessions to swallow objects--forks, knives, nails, pencils, pens and even a radio antennae that caused her to be put into a coma so that doctors could figure out how to get it out because it lodged in her brain when she sneezed while swallowing it. This woman had had so many surgeries and medical procedures from swallowing objects and it all based upon what she though--WHAT HER MIND TOLD HER!! She thought that if she didn't swallow the objects, she would die or her mother would die.
It wasn't until she was 22 that she was finally able to get the help she needed.
As I finished listening the Holy Spirit was just letting me know that the mind is so POWERFUL!! I've heard often that as the mind goes, so does the body....So, this is why I MUST renew my mind in Christ. I can no longer think in bondage to my past. When I accepted Christ I became a new CREATION, but my mind must be renewed EVERYDAY so that I can live a healthy, Godly life!!
I thank God for helping me!!
Then I started thinking about my heart because the Bible says that we must guard our heart and our heart deals with our emotions. We can think one thing, but feel one thing. R. Kelly used to say, "my mind is telling me no, but my body is telling me yes..." Our mind can say one thing and our body and our heart can say something else and we need to know which one to follow. When we accept Christ, we follow our spirit and we only do that when we are renewed in the spirit of our mind.
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
My House Is Gone
The original house that I was looking at is pending a sale.
*sad face*
But, I'm not giving up!! I applied for a mortgage through a different company and they pre-approved me. So, I'm doing the home shopping thing again.
I found a home that is not far from the first one I was looking at. And I love the address 5 East Drive. You know...5, the number of grace! I need God's grace EVERY DAY!!
But, we will see how this goes. The house is listed at $47,000. That means that I need about $2000 for a down payment and about $3000 for closing cost. I have a retirement fund that can probably help. But I've been working my tail off to save money, but some reason I haven't saved any.
Dag, I need help with my finances.
NC guy offered to help. But, why would I take advise from a homeless guy.
NC guy....to be continued....
*sad face*
But, I'm not giving up!! I applied for a mortgage through a different company and they pre-approved me. So, I'm doing the home shopping thing again.
I found a home that is not far from the first one I was looking at. And I love the address 5 East Drive. You know...5, the number of grace! I need God's grace EVERY DAY!!
But, we will see how this goes. The house is listed at $47,000. That means that I need about $2000 for a down payment and about $3000 for closing cost. I have a retirement fund that can probably help. But I've been working my tail off to save money, but some reason I haven't saved any.
Dag, I need help with my finances.
NC guy offered to help. But, why would I take advise from a homeless guy.
NC guy....to be continued....
Sunday, October 18, 2015
All of the Lights
I should have gone to bed last night. But, I was inspired to paint and so that's what I did. I painted and I listened to the television and this is what I came up with:
I was so happy with how it turned out. It's not perfect, I mean the stem in the center is a little odd, but I love the painting. I need to add some green leaves, but I don't know how. I'll figure it out.
Anyway, I was up til past midnight when I finally decided that I needed to get some shut eye and I tossed and turned as is my custom and one the reasons I stay up late anyway. And about 3am, I heard this faint alarm going off. I thought it was one of my neighbors, but it didn't shut off so I got up to look out the window. Nothing was going on in the back, so I went to look out the front window and nothing was going on, so I opened the front door and there was smoked filled in the hallway and the fire alarms were screaming. OMG....Where was the fire?
I walked down stairs to where the alarm was and looked underneath the doors of the two apartments below and there was no smoke coming from underneath, so I was a little befuddled. I went back upstairs and got back into bed. But, 10 minutes later the alarm was still going. I wasn't going to get any sleep this way, so I kept looking out the window and going to the front to see if there was anything going on. I saw a car that was parked in the back drive down the street in the front and stop in front of the building. Someone got out and came into the building, then went back out.
Was this my downstairs neighbor? I think it was. I then looked out the back window and saw my across the hall neighbor in his car in the back. Then the lights....
I got back into bed. The fire department could take care of this.
Next thing I know, I close my eyes and there is banging and my door bell is ringing. WHAT??
I go down and the firemen are trying to get in. I open the door for them and they yell at me to clear the building. WHAT? I have my robe on and socks...no keys so I could get into my car and warm up. UGH!!! WHAT??
The rest of my neighbors file out of the building as they go through to figure out where the smoke is coming from. Everyone is out and all apartments are checked except #2, They bang on the door and the doorbell is ringing. Another fireman goes around to the side of the building. I tell the fireman that I think he left. Someone yells, there is smoke coming from the window. The fireman gets his crowbar or whatever it is and pries the door open. Out walks my downstairs neighbor. WHAT??
He was in there the whole time.....WITH ALL THAT SMOKE!!
Then here comes a fireman with a big pot that is smoking. OMG!!!
He was burning something on the stove. Why didn't he fan the smoke? Did he fall asleep? Why didn't he come out with everyone else? DAG!!
One of the firemen told us we could go back in while they clear his apartment of the smoke so that the alarm could stop sounding. I went back in and tried to get into bed, but all the lights. My brain was going and I couldn't wind down. I kept watching outside to see them leave. Then the alarm stopped and my apartment stunk of smoke and I tried to sleep but the smell of smoke kept me up. I knew I was going to be late for church....
Tuesday, October 13, 2015
I Hate This Website
But, I signed up for it and I even paid my money...twice. Dag. Black Single Christians Meet or something like that. This site is horrible. There is something with their algorithm that makes it seem like you are viewing people's pages, that you don't view. For example, I can skip a day of logging in and then when I do, I can look through my "pages I viewed" tab and it will show that I've viewed people on the day that I never logged in. So how do I know who really is viewing me if they website is playing match maker. Dag,
I did meet a guy from NC. He's attractive and smart and knows God, but he's going through a transition in his life and there is one thing that I know about transition, especially when it comes to starting from the bottom--you can't make emotional decisions while in the transition because you will only be making decisions based on today and not on tomorrow. And as much as we have been having a good time talking and hanging out on google, I'm too old to be a fool. I told him we could be e-friends, but nothing more at this time.
I enjoy our time together because he has been a GREAT distraction from Mister. I am SO DONE with Mister!! And I am grateful that I'm not somewhere wishing and hoping that Mister and I could have something special. Thank God!! But, I don't want to jump from one emotional situation to another, so I'm holding my peace and sticking to my standards. Plus, it does help that he lives in NC even though he said that he was going to come visit me.
We will see how it goes....
I did meet a guy from NC. He's attractive and smart and knows God, but he's going through a transition in his life and there is one thing that I know about transition, especially when it comes to starting from the bottom--you can't make emotional decisions while in the transition because you will only be making decisions based on today and not on tomorrow. And as much as we have been having a good time talking and hanging out on google, I'm too old to be a fool. I told him we could be e-friends, but nothing more at this time.
I enjoy our time together because he has been a GREAT distraction from Mister. I am SO DONE with Mister!! And I am grateful that I'm not somewhere wishing and hoping that Mister and I could have something special. Thank God!! But, I don't want to jump from one emotional situation to another, so I'm holding my peace and sticking to my standards. Plus, it does help that he lives in NC even though he said that he was going to come visit me.
We will see how it goes....
Bullet Holes In The Car
I took him out to eat and we talked about his future. We talked about how it was God's grace and love saved his life. This could have been devastating and I don't know what I would have done, had this been fatal. I'm not ready for that type of pain in my life. I know that I have to go through pain, but that's a kind of pain that is unimaginable.
So I pray for his safety and I curse death and destruction over my families life. In Jesus Name.
Amen!!
Strategy Time
I am evaluating my 35+years on this earth and I need a PLAN for the next 10 years of my life. So I'm going to answer these questions.
1. How important is it to me to maximize the rest of the days of my life?
2. Can I clearly explain my purpose/
3. Can I articulate exactly what I want to accomplish 10 years from now?
4. What is the very best organizational context for my dream?
5. What is the single best measurable indicator that I am making progress towards my dream?
6. If I could accomplish only 3 measurable priorities, goals reached, needs met, or problems solved, before I die, what would I accomplish.
7. What problems or needs am I uniquely qualified to solve or meet?
8. Do I have the right people on my team who can help me reach my dream?
9. Do I have a written detailed strategic plan to accomplish my destiny and leave a lasting legacy?
10. Do I have someone in my life who is not impressed with my current accomplishments or status and will stretch me towards my full potential.
1. How important is it to me to maximize the rest of the days of my life?
2. Can I clearly explain my purpose/
3. Can I articulate exactly what I want to accomplish 10 years from now?
4. What is the very best organizational context for my dream?
5. What is the single best measurable indicator that I am making progress towards my dream?
6. If I could accomplish only 3 measurable priorities, goals reached, needs met, or problems solved, before I die, what would I accomplish.
7. What problems or needs am I uniquely qualified to solve or meet?
8. Do I have the right people on my team who can help me reach my dream?
9. Do I have a written detailed strategic plan to accomplish my destiny and leave a lasting legacy?
10. Do I have someone in my life who is not impressed with my current accomplishments or status and will stretch me towards my full potential.
Wednesday, October 7, 2015
My World
It is October!
And I can't believe it. OMG. This life is going by REALLY fast. What has been going on?
So far, I'm not close to buying my home. My credit score is not up to par. Not yet anyway. I've got to make a plan for that. Mister is out of my life for good. I have no love for him except the love of Christ. I really, really really wish that God could fix this. I can't--AT ALL. I screwed up with him and I wish I didn't. Dag, God!
My financial life is not any better. I'm no closer to paying off my debt than I was a year ago. Spiritually, God has shown me how immature I am and that's a good thing.
God, what is going on with this life? How do I move it along?
I did meet a guy--online and he lives in North Carolina. He's cool to talk to, but I can't figure out how he looks. He's from Illinois and he's 46 and has a 7 year old daughter. We have a good conversation, but I need a general attraction. From his picture, he looks a little nerdy, but nerdy can be good. He's a vegetarian which is impressive. We'll see how it goes.
And I can't believe it. OMG. This life is going by REALLY fast. What has been going on?
So far, I'm not close to buying my home. My credit score is not up to par. Not yet anyway. I've got to make a plan for that. Mister is out of my life for good. I have no love for him except the love of Christ. I really, really really wish that God could fix this. I can't--AT ALL. I screwed up with him and I wish I didn't. Dag, God!
My financial life is not any better. I'm no closer to paying off my debt than I was a year ago. Spiritually, God has shown me how immature I am and that's a good thing.
God, what is going on with this life? How do I move it along?
I did meet a guy--online and he lives in North Carolina. He's cool to talk to, but I can't figure out how he looks. He's from Illinois and he's 46 and has a 7 year old daughter. We have a good conversation, but I need a general attraction. From his picture, he looks a little nerdy, but nerdy can be good. He's a vegetarian which is impressive. We'll see how it goes.
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