Do You Really

In my twilight (almost awake, but still sleep) this morning I was thinking about the curriculum that I was putting together and I need a name. I'm thinking of calling it, "Do You Really Want To Change Your Life?"

Who doesn't?

Who doesn't want to get better.

One of my pastors has been talking about the spirit of Cain and how he was plagued by the spirit of jealousy. Whew chile.....I have some jealous feelings that I need God to deal with!! And I thank Him for deliverance!!

So in order to change your life, the first thing you must do is CHANGE YOUR MIND!!

Change your mind about whatever it is that you are dealing with. That's not easy to do, it takes practice and discipline, but it can happen!! Some times little by little and sometimes overnight, the change happens. Most of the time you can't pinpoint when it happens, but it happens....

Get Back Up Again

I THANK GOD for His grace and mercy.

I slipped and fell Friday night. I let my mind just go where it wanted to go and it lead my body down the wrong path and I sinned. But I used what I have learned and asked for forgiveness and went on to bed. I felt convicted and asked for forgiveness and I tried not to beat myself up to much and I went on about my business. Saturday ended up being a really good day. A woman asked me to pray for her. I felt a twing of guilt, but I trusted God and prayed. I also realized what lead up to me falling.

Golf guy....

Yeah, I can't blame my sin on someone else, but the Bible says in 1 Corinthians 15:33 TLB, "Don't be fooled....If you listen to them you will start acting like them." All golf guy wants to talk about is sex and how to "conquer" women. His goal, in the name of not being lonely, is to have sex with women. He got upset with me when I told him he didn't want to commit. Actually, what I told him wasn't the whole truth. It's not that he doesn't want to commit, its that he's insecure about his position financially and anatomically (small penis syndrome). 

So anyway....

He's sending me these text about all these women he wants to sleep with and one of his other friends that has found a new man and she's sleeping with him and she also been in a long term relationship with a married man...OMG. Every time I get a text from him I roll my eyes because not only does he want to engage in these crazy behaviors, he tries to encourage me to engage with Mr Ohio and the liar. 

I'm so over it!!

I can't do this relationship anymore. In the past he served his purpose and I thank God for bringing him into my life because I've learned so much about men from listening to him and asking questions, but I've progressed and he doesn't get it!!  

So I have to stop "listening to him" because I'm starting to engage in that behavior and I've fought too hard to get away from all of that!!!