Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Friday, April 26, 2013
They Won't Show Up
What does it say when you have to BEG a person to get help?
**SIGH**
I teach a diabetes self-management class. The class is free to anyone who is diabetic, pre-diabetic or caregiver of a diabetic. The class teaches self-management concepts so that people can live healthier. I set up a table a the local soup kitchen because my goal is to reach as many people who don't have insurance as possible and if you are eating at a soup kitchen, then most likely you don't have a job with insurance. (That was my thinking). And that means that you need all the help you can get.
So, I signed up about 7 people. My goal was 5, I was hoping for 10, but 7 was great. I asked each of the people over and over, are you sure you are going to show up? I even had a cool light up pen for them to sign up. I said, "I don't want you to take my pen and not show up." They told me they would. They reasurred me that they would.
Afterwards, the ED let me eat lunch and it was pretty good--beef stew and salad (I don't like pre-dressed salad, it makes it soggy) and red velvet cake for dessert. We were talking and she said, "You know they won't show up, right?" I was a teensy bit offended. Yes, I know that most times when you are trying to work with the MOST underpriviledged, it's hard for them to show up, but I believed that out of the 7 at least 3 would show up. So, I was a little "put off" when she said that. Maybe she is right, but it didn't feel good to hear her say it. I hope they show up, they will truly benefit from it.....
**SIGH**
I teach a diabetes self-management class. The class is free to anyone who is diabetic, pre-diabetic or caregiver of a diabetic. The class teaches self-management concepts so that people can live healthier. I set up a table a the local soup kitchen because my goal is to reach as many people who don't have insurance as possible and if you are eating at a soup kitchen, then most likely you don't have a job with insurance. (That was my thinking). And that means that you need all the help you can get.
So, I signed up about 7 people. My goal was 5, I was hoping for 10, but 7 was great. I asked each of the people over and over, are you sure you are going to show up? I even had a cool light up pen for them to sign up. I said, "I don't want you to take my pen and not show up." They told me they would. They reasurred me that they would.
Afterwards, the ED let me eat lunch and it was pretty good--beef stew and salad (I don't like pre-dressed salad, it makes it soggy) and red velvet cake for dessert. We were talking and she said, "You know they won't show up, right?" I was a teensy bit offended. Yes, I know that most times when you are trying to work with the MOST underpriviledged, it's hard for them to show up, but I believed that out of the 7 at least 3 would show up. So, I was a little "put off" when she said that. Maybe she is right, but it didn't feel good to hear her say it. I hope they show up, they will truly benefit from it.....
I Don't WANT to be Obsessed
I am being plagued.....and I can't stop obsessing....
It's irrational and it's causing me some minor stress. I'm even teaching a class on stress management so I can't be stressed by this. GGGRRRRRRRR!!!!!!
I wish I never did that stupid interview. I WANT the job SO BADLY!! It's perfect. Will it take up a lot of time, YES? But, I NEED THAT job. It's only a 10 month assignment....
GOD, please, If I find favor in your sight, grant me the job, In Jesus name, Amen.
P.S. My Prophetess said she doesn't beg You for anything because she trust You. I'm just gonna trust, that Your will be done, in Jesus Name, Amen. So, no more posting about it!
P.S.S. I just calculated how much money I would make if I got this job. I would bring home at least $4000 per month. AAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHH. I could USE that money.
Also, I just applied for another job as a Public Health Specialist working for the VCF program in another city about 40 miles away. This job pays about $4600 per month. I'm qualified for this one!!
I pray that God's will be done, in Jesus name, Amen!!
It's irrational and it's causing me some minor stress. I'm even teaching a class on stress management so I can't be stressed by this. GGGRRRRRRRR!!!!!!
I wish I never did that stupid interview. I WANT the job SO BADLY!! It's perfect. Will it take up a lot of time, YES? But, I NEED THAT job. It's only a 10 month assignment....
GOD, please, If I find favor in your sight, grant me the job, In Jesus name, Amen.
P.S. My Prophetess said she doesn't beg You for anything because she trust You. I'm just gonna trust, that Your will be done, in Jesus Name, Amen. So, no more posting about it!
P.S.S. I just calculated how much money I would make if I got this job. I would bring home at least $4000 per month. AAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHH. I could USE that money.
Also, I just applied for another job as a Public Health Specialist working for the VCF program in another city about 40 miles away. This job pays about $4600 per month. I'm qualified for this one!!
I pray that God's will be done, in Jesus name, Amen!!
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Strong Man Competition
My boss competed in the strong man competition today and I took my date with me to watch. It was a great afternoon....cold, but fun.
This guy must REALLY like me because I was like an hour and a half late for our date. In my defense, it wasn't my fault. I thought I was supposed to be done at work at noon and that I would be able to meet him at 1. NOPE.
We didn't get done at work until 1 and then I had to take 5 young people home and the last young person wanted me to take her to get her cell phone which I though would only take about 15 minutes. Nope, it took like a half and hour. Then I had to go back home to change (I had my clothes all laid out) and freshen up. I didn't get to the event until around 2:30 and he was still there inside his car in the parking lot waiting on me. WOW!!
Yes, I did text him to let him know that I was running late, but I still can't believe he stayed. After the competition, we went to McGorry's to eat. During lunch we talked about the basics, then he asked the million dollar question, "What happened?"
I feigned ignorance and said, "What do you mean?"
I knew exactly what he meant, but I couldn't believe he was asking me like he didn't know.
Well, of course he didn't know, that's why he was asking me. I didn't want to remind him because part of was the death of his son and I know that is a touchy subject, so I just danced around it and he apologized.
We had a nice lunch and during, I asked him about his marriage. As I asked him, he was drinking water and almost choked. I guess he didn't know that I knew he was married. LOL.
He said that he got married for the wrong reasons and 9 months later he was divorced. WOW!!
His sister told me (about a year ago) that he got married because he was turing 40 and he wanted to be married. I know people get married for various reasons....but WOW. We ended the date with a nice hug. He asked me to keep in touch. I haven't called him and he hasn't called me either. I enjoyed the date, but not him. I wish I can have a date with a man that I enjoy being with.
This guy must REALLY like me because I was like an hour and a half late for our date. In my defense, it wasn't my fault. I thought I was supposed to be done at work at noon and that I would be able to meet him at 1. NOPE.
We didn't get done at work until 1 and then I had to take 5 young people home and the last young person wanted me to take her to get her cell phone which I though would only take about 15 minutes. Nope, it took like a half and hour. Then I had to go back home to change (I had my clothes all laid out) and freshen up. I didn't get to the event until around 2:30 and he was still there inside his car in the parking lot waiting on me. WOW!!
Yes, I did text him to let him know that I was running late, but I still can't believe he stayed. After the competition, we went to McGorry's to eat. During lunch we talked about the basics, then he asked the million dollar question, "What happened?"
I feigned ignorance and said, "What do you mean?"
I knew exactly what he meant, but I couldn't believe he was asking me like he didn't know.
Well, of course he didn't know, that's why he was asking me. I didn't want to remind him because part of was the death of his son and I know that is a touchy subject, so I just danced around it and he apologized.
We had a nice lunch and during, I asked him about his marriage. As I asked him, he was drinking water and almost choked. I guess he didn't know that I knew he was married. LOL.
He said that he got married for the wrong reasons and 9 months later he was divorced. WOW!!
His sister told me (about a year ago) that he got married because he was turing 40 and he wanted to be married. I know people get married for various reasons....but WOW. We ended the date with a nice hug. He asked me to keep in touch. I haven't called him and he hasn't called me either. I enjoyed the date, but not him. I wish I can have a date with a man that I enjoy being with.
really, Really, REALLY
I really, Really, REALLY want the job. OMG!! I'm NOT gonna stress about it, but I really, Really, REALLY, REALLY want the job. OMG.
I don't know what else to say!!!
P.S. Today I prayed and asked God for favor to grant me the job. I want the job because I can easily do it. I can work from home and I am only required to "go into the field" two days out of the month. Also, it would be a BIG boost in my income and I would be able to buy myself a new bed....actually I want this bed, but I'm sure I can't afford it...
And I want this sofa OR the chairs to go with it.
And this clock would be nice on the wall.
I don't know what else to say!!!
P.S. Today I prayed and asked God for favor to grant me the job. I want the job because I can easily do it. I can work from home and I am only required to "go into the field" two days out of the month. Also, it would be a BIG boost in my income and I would be able to buy myself a new bed....actually I want this bed, but I'm sure I can't afford it...
And I want this sofa OR the chairs to go with it.
And this clock would be nice on the wall.
But to buy all of this I would need some MAJOR moola.
So, God, I pray for favor with this new job prospect. I pray that I can get the job so that I can not just buy a new bed, but so that I can be a blessing to the Kingdom, in Jesus name, Amen.
The Waiting Begins
I applied for a job as a Tobacco Compliance Specialist. The job posting said that it was a temporary job, so I was thinking that I could do it as a parttime type of position. I never thought I would get an interview, but I did which was today.
Because I was thinking this was a part time, temporary position, I didn't prepare at all.
Boy, was that a mistake. I went into the interview room and there were 3 people interviewing me. WOW, this was a serious job. After hearing all about the job, I realized that I should have prepared. The job is full time, but they hire the person as a self-employed contractor, so no benefits, but with the 40 hour work week and the fact that it's a federal job, the pay is GREAT!!
The women told me that the interviewees are scored based on the answers to the questions. That should have given me a hint at how I was to answer the questions, but I didn't pay any attention. I answered all of the questions, but not all of them completely. I think there were two questions where I didn't fully answer the questions. Dag, after leaving, I was in the car and I remembered so much that I could have said. Aw man.....
She said it takes 4-6 weeks to get a response. I REALLY want this job becaue it would be such a financial boost!! But, I have to either wait for her call or wait for a rejection letter in the mail. Oh boy....
Happy waiting!!
Because I was thinking this was a part time, temporary position, I didn't prepare at all.
Boy, was that a mistake. I went into the interview room and there were 3 people interviewing me. WOW, this was a serious job. After hearing all about the job, I realized that I should have prepared. The job is full time, but they hire the person as a self-employed contractor, so no benefits, but with the 40 hour work week and the fact that it's a federal job, the pay is GREAT!!
The women told me that the interviewees are scored based on the answers to the questions. That should have given me a hint at how I was to answer the questions, but I didn't pay any attention. I answered all of the questions, but not all of them completely. I think there were two questions where I didn't fully answer the questions. Dag, after leaving, I was in the car and I remembered so much that I could have said. Aw man.....
She said it takes 4-6 weeks to get a response. I REALLY want this job becaue it would be such a financial boost!! But, I have to either wait for her call or wait for a rejection letter in the mail. Oh boy....
Happy waiting!!
Friday, April 19, 2013
I've Got It
Well, I think I've got it....
Actually, I only have about maybe 50% of it, but it's something.
I know what I want to do...not sure exactly how I'm going to do it and the intricate details, but it's coming clearer.
Background....
I've always been a goal oriented person. God made me that way. When I was 22, I sat down and planned my life. There were specifics....by age 30, I was gonna have a list of things done and by the GRACE of God a lot of the list had been accomplished. However, I was concerned because the closer I got to 30, the more I was wondering about the rest of my life. I had actually planned for about 10 years and when that time was coming to a close, I was a little lost...a little adrift....a LOT concerned. So, the past 5 years, I've been questioning and wondering. Well, about a year ago, for some reason, I had a glimpse of it...my new goal (NOT my new purpose, that has always been the same, but how to fulfill my purpose has been dependent upon different goals). I was going to start my own business and this business had to do with research and development, it had to do with analyzing why and how and helping others to do what they needed to do to advance. I was not just going to be working with individuals, but with businesses and organizations.....I had a GOMF (glimpse of my future).
It was later confirmed by my Prophestess. She had no idea what God had given me because I had not shared this with her, only with Mister when we were talking one day. She began to tell me exactly what God had told me and I accepted it as my confirmation and I began to look for how to "get there." What road do I take to make this happen...or do I just wait...wait for what??? There were a lot of questions, but thank God I didn't get anxious. I've learned that from my past. Just because God tells you something or the Prophet of God tells you something, it doesn't mean that you are supposed to jump up and do it that very minute. I mean, I've learned a thing or two from Joseph (in the Bible).
God showed him a few things and he went running off at the mouth and it caused him to be sold into slavery.
So, I just waited...looking for the right road, the right opportunity. You know how you are driving somewhere and you are not quite sure where you are going, but you are following the street signs and the directions and you are slowing down as you go because you know your destination is coming up and you don't want to pass it by. Yeah, that's been me. Just cruising, looking at the signs.....
I knew I was getting closer because I started learning new things, meeting new people...all things that I'm going to need for my future, but I was still waiting and cruising.
I was listening to the radio one day and there was an interesting conversation going on. A woman name Star Parker was being interviewed and she was talking about poverty and welfare. My interest was peaked. I listened and agreed with a lot of what she had to say and then went to look up her books. I wanted to hear more of story. Finally after months of trying to get her books, I was able to get them from the library and Pimps, Whores, and Welfare Brats is an interesting read. I don't agree with everything she has to say (she's an extreme right winger), but it's interesting and it gives a different light to our issues with poverty in America. As I was reading her book, I've also been listening to our Apostle minister about demonstration and how we are to demonstrate Christ in the earth and it's like it hit me, the light bulb came on...I know what I'm going to do.
The plan is still fuzzy.....but this is what I've got.
My business will be helping social services to not just provide welfare, but move people from the welfare system to self-sufficiency.. Now the Bible says, "the poor, you will always have with you..." and I've always wondered why the Bible always talks about the poor....So, no, we WILL NEVER get rid of poverty, but there are people who are handicapped by the welfare system. I am going to use my skills and my abilities to not just get people from being stuck in the welfare system, but also social services from being stuck with the mentality that they have to perpetuate the welfare system to people.
I AM NOT AGAINST WELFARE. I am a second generation welfare recipient...well I used to be, but thank God that was temporary. I've never wanted to LIVE on welfare, but it was always there as a safetynet, but the safety net is NOT something that should become a lifestlye.
It bothers me that people feel that they are entitled to welfare and the the goverment SHOULD take care of them.
YES, I am grateful for the assistance that I've received and I pray that I don't have to use it again especially a medical card and YES, I am grateful that we have a country who is concerned about those MOST in need, but those MOST in need must not take advantage of the system and become dependent on it.
I was a little bothered when I heard that my baby brother is being claimed on my other brother's taxes. That's fraud. Then I was even more concerned because he is being claimed on my brother's taxes, my mother is not filing his financial aid forms because she has not claimed him on her taxes in several years. Then I was irritated that my mother was not going to file out my brother's financial aid form because he would not be eligible for finaicial aid on my mother's salary, so she would be responsible for his tuition and she doesn't want to pay his tuition.....
Ok, I don't know all of this to be true, but this is what I'm thinking. Why not pay for his tuition? He's YOUR son, YOUR baby boy and you have NOT paid for NONE of your children to go to college, but now that you have the means, you don't want to?? WHAT?? I would gladly pay for his tuition!!! Because I think it is a PRIVILEDGE that God has blessed you with financial resources to be able to education your child. BOY, I CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE CHILDREN!!!
Well, anyway, it's because we are programmed to think that the government SHOULD kick in and help, but the GOVERNMENT has NOTHING to do with you!!! God has gifted everyone with the ability to care for themselves (except for those disabled or who have some other issued where they can't take care for themselves). So, why not use those abilities to care for yourself and your family?? There are young able-bodied people who don't do anything for themselves because the goverment will take care of them. And that bothers me.
My goal will be to help change those mindsets.
Star Parker has been given the charge to go after policy and from what I see, she's doing a good job (a noble, hard job, but a good one). I have always been one to work at the lowest level, one person at a time, so that's where my research and analysis and human development experience is going to go and I'm going to document the entire journey.
I'm going to TOUCH HEARTS, AND CHANGE LIVES!!!
Actually, I only have about maybe 50% of it, but it's something.
I know what I want to do...not sure exactly how I'm going to do it and the intricate details, but it's coming clearer.
Background....
I've always been a goal oriented person. God made me that way. When I was 22, I sat down and planned my life. There were specifics....by age 30, I was gonna have a list of things done and by the GRACE of God a lot of the list had been accomplished. However, I was concerned because the closer I got to 30, the more I was wondering about the rest of my life. I had actually planned for about 10 years and when that time was coming to a close, I was a little lost...a little adrift....a LOT concerned. So, the past 5 years, I've been questioning and wondering. Well, about a year ago, for some reason, I had a glimpse of it...my new goal (NOT my new purpose, that has always been the same, but how to fulfill my purpose has been dependent upon different goals). I was going to start my own business and this business had to do with research and development, it had to do with analyzing why and how and helping others to do what they needed to do to advance. I was not just going to be working with individuals, but with businesses and organizations.....I had a GOMF (glimpse of my future).
It was later confirmed by my Prophestess. She had no idea what God had given me because I had not shared this with her, only with Mister when we were talking one day. She began to tell me exactly what God had told me and I accepted it as my confirmation and I began to look for how to "get there." What road do I take to make this happen...or do I just wait...wait for what??? There were a lot of questions, but thank God I didn't get anxious. I've learned that from my past. Just because God tells you something or the Prophet of God tells you something, it doesn't mean that you are supposed to jump up and do it that very minute. I mean, I've learned a thing or two from Joseph (in the Bible).
God showed him a few things and he went running off at the mouth and it caused him to be sold into slavery.
So, I just waited...looking for the right road, the right opportunity. You know how you are driving somewhere and you are not quite sure where you are going, but you are following the street signs and the directions and you are slowing down as you go because you know your destination is coming up and you don't want to pass it by. Yeah, that's been me. Just cruising, looking at the signs.....
I knew I was getting closer because I started learning new things, meeting new people...all things that I'm going to need for my future, but I was still waiting and cruising.
I was listening to the radio one day and there was an interesting conversation going on. A woman name Star Parker was being interviewed and she was talking about poverty and welfare. My interest was peaked. I listened and agreed with a lot of what she had to say and then went to look up her books. I wanted to hear more of story. Finally after months of trying to get her books, I was able to get them from the library and Pimps, Whores, and Welfare Brats is an interesting read. I don't agree with everything she has to say (she's an extreme right winger), but it's interesting and it gives a different light to our issues with poverty in America. As I was reading her book, I've also been listening to our Apostle minister about demonstration and how we are to demonstrate Christ in the earth and it's like it hit me, the light bulb came on...I know what I'm going to do.
The plan is still fuzzy.....but this is what I've got.
My business will be helping social services to not just provide welfare, but move people from the welfare system to self-sufficiency.. Now the Bible says, "the poor, you will always have with you..." and I've always wondered why the Bible always talks about the poor....So, no, we WILL NEVER get rid of poverty, but there are people who are handicapped by the welfare system. I am going to use my skills and my abilities to not just get people from being stuck in the welfare system, but also social services from being stuck with the mentality that they have to perpetuate the welfare system to people.
I AM NOT AGAINST WELFARE. I am a second generation welfare recipient...well I used to be, but thank God that was temporary. I've never wanted to LIVE on welfare, but it was always there as a safetynet, but the safety net is NOT something that should become a lifestlye.
It bothers me that people feel that they are entitled to welfare and the the goverment SHOULD take care of them.
YES, I am grateful for the assistance that I've received and I pray that I don't have to use it again especially a medical card and YES, I am grateful that we have a country who is concerned about those MOST in need, but those MOST in need must not take advantage of the system and become dependent on it.
I was a little bothered when I heard that my baby brother is being claimed on my other brother's taxes. That's fraud. Then I was even more concerned because he is being claimed on my brother's taxes, my mother is not filing his financial aid forms because she has not claimed him on her taxes in several years. Then I was irritated that my mother was not going to file out my brother's financial aid form because he would not be eligible for finaicial aid on my mother's salary, so she would be responsible for his tuition and she doesn't want to pay his tuition.....
Ok, I don't know all of this to be true, but this is what I'm thinking. Why not pay for his tuition? He's YOUR son, YOUR baby boy and you have NOT paid for NONE of your children to go to college, but now that you have the means, you don't want to?? WHAT?? I would gladly pay for his tuition!!! Because I think it is a PRIVILEDGE that God has blessed you with financial resources to be able to education your child. BOY, I CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE CHILDREN!!!
Well, anyway, it's because we are programmed to think that the government SHOULD kick in and help, but the GOVERNMENT has NOTHING to do with you!!! God has gifted everyone with the ability to care for themselves (except for those disabled or who have some other issued where they can't take care for themselves). So, why not use those abilities to care for yourself and your family?? There are young able-bodied people who don't do anything for themselves because the goverment will take care of them. And that bothers me.
My goal will be to help change those mindsets.
Star Parker has been given the charge to go after policy and from what I see, she's doing a good job (a noble, hard job, but a good one). I have always been one to work at the lowest level, one person at a time, so that's where my research and analysis and human development experience is going to go and I'm going to document the entire journey.
I'm going to TOUCH HEARTS, AND CHANGE LIVES!!!
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
I've got a date, Friday night at eight
....and it will be so great....
I so miss the company of a man. But, not just ANY man, a man that I'm in LOVE with. NO, I'm not desperate. Thank God!!
But, I have been in a dry spell for a while and now I've got a date. It's actually on Saturday for lunch and it's not exactly with a man, that I WANT to go out with, but I think it will be fun. He's a nice guy and in the past, we've had fun, well, until he broke up with me, but the past is in the past and I will let it go. I won't even bring it up. That was like ages ago in 2008....so it practically didn't happen.
He wanted to go to lunch or dinner. I always opt for lunch because dinner is too intimate, plus I'm not sure if I even like him enough to WANT to go to dinner. I mean, he's really attractive, but we didn't have a world wind romance. He didn't sweep me off my feet, and he broke up with me and didn't tell me....yep, for three weeks I called and went to his house and nothing. WOW!!!
So, we are going to lunch and I suggested an afternoon movie. I REALLY want to see OZ!! I wish I can take a friend with me to the movies because I want her to go, she's been down, but I don't think he'd like me bringing someone else along on our date. LOL
I so miss the company of a man. But, not just ANY man, a man that I'm in LOVE with. NO, I'm not desperate. Thank God!!
But, I have been in a dry spell for a while and now I've got a date. It's actually on Saturday for lunch and it's not exactly with a man, that I WANT to go out with, but I think it will be fun. He's a nice guy and in the past, we've had fun, well, until he broke up with me, but the past is in the past and I will let it go. I won't even bring it up. That was like ages ago in 2008....so it practically didn't happen.
He wanted to go to lunch or dinner. I always opt for lunch because dinner is too intimate, plus I'm not sure if I even like him enough to WANT to go to dinner. I mean, he's really attractive, but we didn't have a world wind romance. He didn't sweep me off my feet, and he broke up with me and didn't tell me....yep, for three weeks I called and went to his house and nothing. WOW!!!
So, we are going to lunch and I suggested an afternoon movie. I REALLY want to see OZ!! I wish I can take a friend with me to the movies because I want her to go, she's been down, but I don't think he'd like me bringing someone else along on our date. LOL
So Far Behind
*SIGHHHHHH*
I believe in miracles. I always have. I can even name some miracles that God has performed in my life....
So, why do I have issues?
There is a disparity between what I believe and what I believe.
I believe the word of God, YES I DO!! But why is it hard to conceptualize it for me?
*SIGHHHH*
I believe in miracles. I always have. I can even name some miracles that God has performed in my life....
So, why do I have issues?
There is a disparity between what I believe and what I believe.
I believe the word of God, YES I DO!! But why is it hard to conceptualize it for me?
*SIGHHHH*
Going to the Prom
I had to go to prom. I didn't want to miss it!! I wanted to support my brother in all of his graduation activities. So, I spent $208 traveling home and another $200 while at home to celebrate. And yes, I even went the prom.
No, I didn't get in, but I stood outside in the freezing cold with all of the other cousins, aunties, uncles, brothers, sisters, and parents...taking pictures.....freezing....
....and watched all of the teenagers strut down the sidewalk and up the stairs before heading inside.
According to Mister, I'm a nerd (for going to the prom).
Yes, me and about 100 other people who had to be shooed away by the police.....LOL.
No, I didn't get in, but I stood outside in the freezing cold with all of the other cousins, aunties, uncles, brothers, sisters, and parents...taking pictures.....freezing....
....and watched all of the teenagers strut down the sidewalk and up the stairs before heading inside.
According to Mister, I'm a nerd (for going to the prom).
Yes, me and about 100 other people who had to be shooed away by the police.....LOL.
90:10
STRESS has been major these last few weeks. I was not able to attend my cousin's bday party or my brother's wedding. I have not paid my debt retirement or my car note. I had to spend more money trying to get to my brother's prom....
My 15 year old cousin is now in a mental institution because he wanted to kill his mother. My brother and sister has been taken out of the will. They are getting ZERO and their portion is being given to the rest of the benificiaries.
My car is horribly in need of repairs--new back brakes, new other stuff that I don't know what is making it act the way that it is acting.
And I can't seem to make ends meet with my money....So, instead of paying down my debts, I don't pay anything because I don't want to be broke.
So, yes, streess has been major. It's been so major that I've resorted to taking mental vacations. Yep, instead of thinking about life, I watch copious amounts of TV or I read books, and fantasize about being rick and married to a handsome man....anything to keep my mind off the stressors in life.
Actually, my coping meganism is not bad. I was listening to a doctor talk about how to manage stress and he stated that the people who manage stress well are the people who can control their thoughts and change their attitude about a situation. He said that stress management is 10% what happens and 90% how you respond to the situation.
WOW.
So, now I'm going to go by the 90:10 rule. I'm not going to allow things to bog my mind down so much that I can't function.
I've learned a long time about attitude and how it affects your life, but never have I heard it in relation to stress. Now I have a new attitude about stress.
Thank God!!
My 15 year old cousin is now in a mental institution because he wanted to kill his mother. My brother and sister has been taken out of the will. They are getting ZERO and their portion is being given to the rest of the benificiaries.
My car is horribly in need of repairs--new back brakes, new other stuff that I don't know what is making it act the way that it is acting.
And I can't seem to make ends meet with my money....So, instead of paying down my debts, I don't pay anything because I don't want to be broke.
So, yes, streess has been major. It's been so major that I've resorted to taking mental vacations. Yep, instead of thinking about life, I watch copious amounts of TV or I read books, and fantasize about being rick and married to a handsome man....anything to keep my mind off the stressors in life.
Actually, my coping meganism is not bad. I was listening to a doctor talk about how to manage stress and he stated that the people who manage stress well are the people who can control their thoughts and change their attitude about a situation. He said that stress management is 10% what happens and 90% how you respond to the situation.
WOW.
So, now I'm going to go by the 90:10 rule. I'm not going to allow things to bog my mind down so much that I can't function.
I've learned a long time about attitude and how it affects your life, but never have I heard it in relation to stress. Now I have a new attitude about stress.
Thank God!!
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