ReFormation

That's the focus for 2017. In 2016 God began a work in me and this work is not done. He is making everything in my life right side up....

When I was purchasing my house I knew that it was my house because it reminded me of me....it was a good structure, in a good neighborhood with a good price, but it was outdated. I knew that I would be remodeling my house. It pictured my life. My life needed to be remodeled--the walls needed to be torn down and built back up--new!!

So, that is what's going on in my life right now. God is tearing down everything that is old.

I decided not to date during this season because dating distracts me. I need to be new, but dating keeps me thinking about the old. I mean, I have been having sex since I was 3 years old and I feel like I can't be close to a man and stay pure. That's not natural. I have fears in my life that control me and God's love takes away fear, so I need to be washed in His love!

As hard as it is to remodel my house and this life, I am doing it and I thank God for giving me the grace. It's going to seem like a long journey, but it's worth it. I can't wait to meet the new me!!

Vision 2017

I have traveled about 1500 miles over last weekend and in my travels I was able to visit my family in Bolivar, TN and Macon, MS. My cousin was able to take us (my baby brother, niece, and cousin) to the cemetary where our family members were buried. She then told us all about the land that our family owned. There is about 108 acres of land that is left.

I believe this is a myth, but I was told that anyone could go down to Bolivar to build a house on the land and that the land can't be sold or bartered. The reason I believe this isn't true is because some of the people have sold their land. And the land that is left is in different people's names.

I mention that because my brother, uncle and I were thinking about how we could go down there to do something with the land. From visiting I don't think that's an option.

However, in prayer this morning I began to think about my legacy and how I can continue my families legacy of being land owners. Not only do my family have land in TN, but there are about 150 acres of land in Macon, MS that my family owns. My grant aunt has about 100 acres of land and my great uncle has about 45 acres of land. My great grandmother's house used to be on the 50 acres and we were able to go visit both areas. My great grandmother's land have cotton fields on it and they lease the land to farmers and there are 16 pecan trees. I love those pecan trees. When we were little, we used to bring back bags and bags of pecans. They say that MS is the largest area that produces pecans. I would love to go down and get pecans off our land.

So in prayer I just had a vision of me and the next generation owning land. My grandmother's house sits on a corner in E St Louis. There is a huge lot next to the house, a huge lot across one street and a huge lot across the other street. All down the street the houses have been torn down. I would love to own the whole block. Then further down the street the buildings are decrepit. I would love to own it one day. I think that's what I'm going to work towards.

Also during prayer I was seeing myself working in health and business. I think I want to go ahead and apply for the MPH, Ph. D dual degree program at U of I.

Thank you Jesus for vision!!

My Visit to TN and MS

On Second Thought....

So Petrice and I had a nice convo the other day. One thing he said was that he didn't think you can ever "know" a person. That was interesting to me so he explained and I'm not sure I understand him. How can you not "know" someone or get to "know" them? I mean when you are dating, you learn about a person and you use that information to determine if you want to be with them. I even told him that the Bible says that you have to know them that labor among you (1 Thess 5). He said some other stuff, but I was still baffled.  Then he said something else that I didn't quite agree with....and it all reminded me of a time when I was on the bus listening to the bus driver talk to a man and he told that man that some stuff you don't "need" to "know." The guy and the bus driver was going back and forth. Then the bus driver asked me, "What do you think?"

What I thought was what the Bible said, "My people perish because of lack of knowledge..."

But what I said was, "What you don't know can kill you!"

The bus driver started back tracking. He wasn't expecting my answer.

Huuuhhhhhh......

I don't know what to do about this guy!! God help me!!!!