Vision

I was sitting in church today as the Elder was preaching and I just had to flash of a dream about an after school program. I currently writing a grant for it. I pray that the will of God be done as I complete this project. In Jesus name, Amen!

My Mirror

"You need to be who you want to attract," that's what my mom told me when I told her the fiasco that happened with Mister in February.

I've been working on me. Since January, I made it my goal to get my life--get me together. But, I met this guy and he is the first guy that I've met like him. I'm not thinking about the Pastor stuff he's talking about, but about him wanting a like for Christ. I haven't met a guy like that. So, I invited him to my uncle's fish fry for Labor Day.

And I was embarrassed.

He showed up and before he got out the car he said, "I'm not gonna tell them I'm a Pastor..." I was happy because it was already enough telling them we met online. As soon as I introduced him to my mom and cousin, the grilling started and it wasn't so nice. As the day progressed my cousin continued to grill him and finally at the dinner table he said, "I'm a Pastor...." Then went on to talk about his Bishop and how they could call him and he would say how good of a guy he was.

I was a bit embarrassed. I mean, he said he wasn't going to say anything. Then he tried to make a joke when they asked him about his church. He said he was a Jehovah's Witness. The whole kitchen erupted. Then then there was joking about how he was a Mormon and a Deacon. I did enjoy talking to him, but I was embarrassed and I told him that now he wasn't gonna have to live down the joke and despite what he tells them, they are going to give him a hard time.

Well, as the time has gone by and I've been praying about him, I came to the realization that I have attracted exactly who I am. What he displayed to me on that day at my Uncle's and even the first time we talked was the fact that he was a bit prideful. It wasn't that he said what he said, but it was HOW he said it.

And that reminded me of me....


He's my mirror. And it's NOT pretty!!

So, God, I thank you for showing me the pride that is still in my life!! I pray that that spirit, that stronghold is removed from my life, in Jesus name. Amen!!

God is Tryna Tell Me Something

So, this guy that I met, I've been talking to him to check him out, even tough the whole Pastor thing is not impressive. But, I had this dream and he told me that he had diverticulitis and he needs to have surgery. So I had this dream that he was in the hospital getting his surgery, but before the surgery he was cutting people's hair. I was in the waiting room just watching TV wondering why he was cutting people's hair. A doctor came in and looked at my really funny. I chided, "It's just mindless TV," and he walked out. Then I woke up.

In the dream God showed me that in the face of stress, instead of running to God, I want to put my head in the sand and not think about it. But, there are some people, in the face of stressful situations who will continue to, "be about my father's business," 

That encouraged me. I didn't tell Ro about the dream. Note sure if I need to. It wasn't about him.

Sit Your Butt Down Somewhere

So I met this guy on POF and when I first talked to him, I was quite unsure. We emailed at first, but then when he called me it was a brief conversation. He said something about being a businessman-owning his own business, and then he said he was a Pastor.

Ok.

We later texted and decided to meet up at Applebees for some amazing chicken wonton tacos. He is super tall-6'7", but we had a good time talking and then went to see Florence Foster Jenkins. It was a funny movie. We met again the next day and he told me that he was going to be near me to visit a church so we decided to meet after I got out of church. We ate again and then went to see Southside With Me. Excellent movie!!

The problem is, I asked him about his church and he said he didn't really have a church.

Ok...what Pastor doesn't have a church.

Is it like me being a teacher--I'm a teacher, but I haven't formally, professionally taught since 2010? So I asked him if he belonged to a church and he said that he didn't belong to a church, but was the overseer of a ministry called Fresh Fire which is a fellowship of churches. And his job is to recruit churches to the fellowship.

Ok. So, I guess he's the Pastor over Fresh Fire.

I think.