Failure is an Event....Zig Ziglar 1926 - 2012

Failure is an Event, not a Person. Yesterday really did end last night....Zig Ziglar

I Promise to Take Care of Your Sew-in

I just attended a wedding....it was really sweet. They chose to write their own vows and read them off their ipads. Part of the wows, the groom said, I promise to take care of you and your sew-in from time to time. It was really funny and ssssoooooo cute.

I didn't stay for the reception, but I had a good time. I"m glad I went.

More cheese in the mac and cheese, please

I just finished cooking macaroni and cheese and potato cauliflower mash.  My mac and cheese needs more cheese. I didn't follow the recipe exactly because I didn't want to make a large batch, so I was playing around with the measurements and I think I used too much flour and too little cheese in my roue.  I wonder if I can just add more cheese if that will work.

My potato cauliflower mash is amazing. I roasted the cauliflower, roasted carrots and parsnips and boiled two potatoes. I blended it all together with almond milk and butter and it awesome. I will add garlic, onions and mushrooms on tomorrow.

I'm also gonna cook my lobster tail and steam my broccoli tomorrow to add to the mac and cheese. I will back my rum cake tomorrow also.  I would do it tonight, but I'm tired.

*Post script*  Broccoli and lobster in the mac and cheese is genius. The rum cake is baking in the oven. I didn't get Captain Morgan Spiced Rum this time, so I hope it turns out okay. I got Sailor Jerry Spiced Rum because it was $2 cheaper and the check out girl recommended it. But, it is really strong, I hope it doesn't mess up my cake.....

Emotions

Yesterday was an emotional day and I'm not even sure why?? I was fasting (my church fast on Friday's in November). And we had to work at a health fair....well, not really a health fair, but a Homeless and Veteran's Stand Down event. It was an event to offer social services to veterans, homeless people and anyone else that needed it. The even lasted until 4pm and as we were leaving people were still trying to come in. One lady came in right at 4pm wanting information on emergency dental work. She was SO inebriated that it gave me a MAJOR headache. After leaving the even I was feeling quite "something" I'm not sure. My emotions were ..... I then began to feel a little.....

 Okay, REWIND. While at the event I ran into Mae (not her real name). We had been friends in a former life and I knew she was getting married so I asked how the wedding was going. This then opened up the door. Apparently, I was invited to the wedding, but I never got the invite. So she informally invited me then and I agreed to show up, but I was a little uneasy about it. I mean, the wedding is next week. I don't have a date and I know with weddings, you turn in the menu to tell how many people are coming...yada yada yada, so it was a little awkward for me. But, I agreed to show up.

Well, as I was leaving the event, that contributed to my emotions. In addition to the drunk lady.

I went grocery shopping afterwards and all of these emotions were swirling around and I walked down the isle and I saw him.

My heart started beating really fast and I had to do a double take, but he was with another woman, so I didn't want to stare. I think I looked two or three times and as they were walking past, I spoke, he spoke, the other woman just grunted. I realized it wasn't him. I was still nervous. My heart was still pumping.

I went to another store and then I saw another "him". No, I'm not crazy. This was a different guy. A different guy that I was in a relationship with. No, my heart didn't pump, I wasn't nervous, but I was still uneasy. Of course we spoke to each other civily. All of this....

Well, actually there WAS another event that added to my slight duress. On Thursday evening I saw "him". Not the same him, or the other him, but him. He was cordial, not stiff like he was at the church. The next day I saw her. I know, I know....too many people, but I've never wrote about her. And I really don't want to, but I will just say that I was uneasy around her. Not really uneasy, but just a little rift, not quite bothered, but something....

So, I saw him on Thursday....I talked about going to a wedding on Friday......worked with some really needy people all day on Friday....was begged by a drunk women to help her with dental work.....then I saw him, who wasn't really him, and another him.

I was emotionally drained. And on top of all of that Thanksgiving is next week........

3.5%

I completed my second performance evaluation at work today and I was gratefully told by my boss that I'm getting a 3.5% raise. Yep, I will be earning about $45 more each paycheck. I'm not complaining. That a tank full of gas (if it doesn't rise more than $3.75 per gallon). Apparently, 3% is common but because of my score on the evaluation, I qualified for 3.5% which is higher than other employees. That actually causes me a little bit of pressure, because now I think I have to outperform myself. God help me!!!

Next Week is Thanksgiving!!

I've got BIG plans. Well, not quite BIG, but I plan a nice meal: Turkey Sausage dressing Lobster Mac & Cheese (with broccoli) Cauliflower, potato mash (with onions, mushrooms, carrots, and parsnips) Tomato, basil, beet salad with mozzarella For dessert I'm thinking about something with sweet potatoes OR rum cake. I'm not sure which one. I'm not making goo gobs, just enough for me and leftovers for about a week. Then I'm gonna plan for Christmas dinner!!! YAY!!!

I Wish I was in San Diego

On Tuesday, November 4, 2008 I was on a plane from Chicago to San Diego. And I was HAPPY!!  When I touched down in beautiful San Diego, I checked into the Catamaran Hotel and went to dinner.  That night, I didn't turn on the television. I didn't want to know who won the election until the next morning. And sure enough, the next morning I got my USA Today newspaper and was elated to see this picture:

I wish I was in San Diego again for this year's election or SOMEWHERE else!!!  I can't take the stress, so tomorrow, I will be sleeping in as long as I can and then I'm going to lunch and a meeting, and then to church. But, I refuse to keep tabs on the election poles!! 

Inspiration

People are often inspired by a lot of things, but the problem with inspiration is that it often is misleading!!  I was inspired a few months ago while in a workout class. I was having so much fun that I thought to myself, "I would like to teach aerobics." So, the opportunity presented itself and I taught some aerobics classes. However, a short time after starting, I became blase about it and didn't want to teach anymore. As a matter of fact, I don't think I was really good at all. But,  why did I want to teach anyway?  Because I was inspired by the teacher.

After coming to that realization, I started thinking about my life. I became a teacher because I was inspired as a teenager by two very good teachers. I went to graduate school to become a school principal because I one of those teachers who inspired me was a principal.  But, I'm not teaching now.  Actually, I love to teach, but I dont' want to be in k-12 anymore.

So, after thinking about this and thinking about this another situation presented itself to me.....

I have to speak at a corporate lunch and learn event for employees of Monsanto and I've been pondering and pondering about how and what I would present. It has to be something health related and I came across this video:


I became inspired!!

WOW, maybe I can do something like this during my presentation.  But, the I STOPPED!!! I was DOING IT AGAIN!!!  Doing something, or trying to do something because someone else was doing it REALLY well!! And I had to JUST STOP!!

Just because someone is doing something well, doesn't mean that I'm SUPPOSED to do it.

So, WHAT am I supposed to do??

Well, right now I don't know, but I have to work on NOT trying to do something because someone else was doing it.