Health Crisis

January 15, 2019
I traveled to Chicago because my sister was in labor. When I got there her BD was there. He stayed for a few hours then left. His mom came and stayed for a few hours then left. During this time we fast and pray for 21 days at my church so I wasn't eating until after 7pm. As I got up to walk to the cafeteria I felt a pain in my left calf. I walked and walked and it got worse and I could barely put my foot down on the floor without excruciating pain. I got back to the room, said a prayer and tried to fall asleep. The pain didn't go away so I took a Tylenol. My niece was born the next morning and the Tylenol worked. I didn't feel the pain anymore. When I got back home I went straight to my doctor's office. They scheduled an appointment for me an hour later and she sent me to the hospital to get an ultrasound done on my leg. Yep, I had a DVT.

I was relieved to find out what was wrong, but also concerned. I had a PE in 2004 after my daughter was born. This DVT was nothing to be passe about. My doctor ordered a blood thinner and when I went to the pharmacy to pick it up my insurance had been cancelled so I had to be on the phone for hours getting that taken care of. It was crazy. After clearing up the insurance issue, the pharmacist wanted to charge me about $600 for the medicine. She said because I have a deductible that hadn't been met I the insurance company was only paying for a portion of the medicine so I had to sign up for a prescription program. It was a whole mess.

On January 25 I had a doctors appt with a hematologist. He was reviewing my chart and he kept saying that my condition was acute. I agreed. But he kept saying it and then he said this was long term and that I'd need to be on medication forever. I disagreed and said, not it's an acute problem and it will go away. Then he corrected himself and said no it's not acute, it's chronic. He ordered blood test and sent me on my way.

When the test results came back it said that I have lupus anticoagulant.

This sounds really scary, but basically it means that there is a blood clotting disorder. Of course I've always resisted this diagnosis and sometimes I even forget to take my medication.

In March I started having heart palpitations. I had gone to work out on Monday and by Wednesday the heart palpitations had not stopped. I felt fine, just heart palpitations. So I called the hematologist and he said to go to the ER.

WHAT? I was fine, so I ran a few errands and went to the ER. When I got there, it was packed with people. I guess we had a lot of people with the flu. So I sat in the ER and as I sat I was attacked. It was a demonic attack. My started getting really hot and my heart started racing and then I started to black out. As I was sitting I took deep breathes and the black out stopped. I texted a friend and she came to sit with me in the ER. When they called me back to do my EKG I was shivering so hard that they had a hard time time getting a good read. Once they got me back to see a doctor they took some blood, did a chest x-ray and sent me home I was fine according to them.

This happened again in April and in May. Finally after praying the Holy Spirit led me to start back taking my vitamins and Vitamin D. The symptoms stopped.

OMG...you mean to tell me after heart monitoring (twice) a neurology brain scan, an 8-hour blood glucose test and three trips to the ER, it was only my vitamin D.

Apparently so. I was so perturbed. I mean I spend almost $10,000 on all these test. It was horrible.

By August I had gained 30lbs and I was exhausted. I was at my whits end also. So in October I contacted a nutritionist who was a nurse who was also studying to become a functional medicine doctor. She told me to get some blood work done and that she's help me. I got blood work done in December and found out that my iron was so low. It was 16. A good Ferritin level is 100. My doctor told me to eat more red meet. The nutritionist told me to order some iron. I found a new doctor.

Dr Alan Christianson wrote the book, "The Idiots Guide to Thyroid Disorders." I read the book in 2012 and bought it last year. I googled his practice and was making plans to travel to see him when I found out that his practice does telemedicine. When I met with one if his doctors she told me that I needed iron. STAT. So she ordered two rounds of iron infusions.

I've had my two rounds and now I'm still fatigued because my cortisol levels are really low in the morning. But I can't take supplements because they affect my blood thinner. So I'm on a journey of healing and it's gonna be one condition after the other. I need to get my fibroids together, my thyroid together, and my adrenals. together.

I Knew It

My aunt has been in the hospital. She's not doing so well. She has continuous heart failure. The doctors say that she's in the last stages of heart failure and the treatment that they are giving her has a 40% chance of extending her life for a year. It's somber news and I don't want my aunt to die, but it's what we are facing now. I've been trying to imagine her not being here. It's hard to think about. I mention  her because every time I talk to her, she ask me about who "I'm With?" Meaning who am I dating, who am I sleeping with, etc. Of course the answer right now is NO ONE.

I got food poisoning on January 7 and it was so bad I was throwing up and had diarrhea all night long. It was HORRIBLE. My niece had food poisoning a week prior to that? 

What is wrong in my household?

Well, the sweet potatoes stayed a little too long in the refrigerator and I ate them and fed some to my niece. I felt so bad. Then a week later I had new sweet potatoes and I guess they stayed a little too long in the refrigerator and it got me.

Anyway throwing every hour all night long will you have praying to God for help and that's what I did and while praying I realized that I needed to throw up to get the poison out of my body. And I realized that Charles and Bryan were both poison. Charles caused me so much stress and I met Bryan under false pretenses so why continue to see him. So I sent both of them a final text saying that I didn't want to see them anymore and then I blocked them both. And I've been more productive. I just deleted FB dating also. So I am really single.

I got a text on the way to the hospital to see my aunt on Saturday, "How's your love life?" It took me a minute to figure out who it was was and I realized that it was David or Golf Guy. I hadn't talked to him since April 2019. I blocked him because he sent me this extremely sexual text and I was just disgusted. I felt disrespected. I've told David more than once that we were friends and that I wasn't interested in sleeping with him, so he was on the blocked list. Then I randomly unblocked him and he texted me. So yesterday we began to catch up and talk about why we lost touch. He let me know that he had tried to call me and text me, but I was blocked. I explained to him why I blocked him, which was because I was so stressed that I was going to therapy for past sexual abuse and him sending me that text was a major trigger and I couldn't handle that trigger. So I blocked him. He apologized. And now here we are. I really enjoy David's company but I'm not sure what he'll do with this new found news of sexual abuse in my past. I told him that I'm celibate because I can't just sleep with guy after guy. I can't do the casual sex, casual dating thing. My psyche can't handle it. My spirit and soul can't handle it. So if he only wants to talk to me because he thinks he has a chance at having sex with me, this won't last long. I've gotten rid of the poison and I don't need to add more!!