U Can't Afford Me

I've never been impressed by money. In a relationship, that is. Not that I've ever had someone who just showered and showered me with gifts, but I have had a few guys buy me stuff, but money never impressed me. Of course I didn't grow up with money, so maybe my view is skewed, but I've learning to work hard to get what I need and want and if  guy comes along and wants to, out of the goodness of his hard, or to try to impress me, then that's fine. I'll take it.

Actually, I might not, depending on the circumstances.

I have given away or gotten rid of things that men have given me over the years, except for two items...a set of ottomans in my living room and a silver link necklace, that I have not worn in a long time. These two items were bought by a guy who was my friend, but he wanted to date me.

I'll be getting rid of them soon.

Other than that, I don't have anything that any other man has purchased for me. And if a man wants to purchase something for me now, I'd be hesitant. It means something to have someone buy something for you. They took the time to think about what to get. That means something.

So, I don't take that lightly.

Mister and I was talking about this briefly. As a matter of fact, I told him he couldn't afford me. He didn't understand.

Mister had never been one to have a lot of money and he said to me that he would do what he could to afford me. He even said he'd skip a student loan payment for me. LOL. Then he said that he would think about skipping two, but that might not be likely. I LOL. What he didn't understand was that money is not what it cost to get me!

I have my own money, I can buy what I need and want and God has blessed me to work to get out of debt, so it's not the money....it's who you are and what you stand for.

I left Mister because we didn't have the same values. We didn't value the same things that make life what it is.

I value a Christ-centered life. I HIGHLY value that and I left (sacrificed) that relationship and told God that I wanted Him more than a man who didn't love if. It cost me to leave him. I mean, Mister was the man that I was comfortable with. Not that God can't bring me an even better man, but during that time in my life, I had not had a relationship like that with any man and it was refreshing, it was eye opening. I LOVED IT!,

But, I LOVE GOD MORE and I hope that God sees that. I mean, there are people in my church who have gotten married, under varying circumstances and I'm not the one to judge them, but I put God first because I want to be obedient. If God tells me to not to marry someone who has the same values as I do, then that is what I'm going to do, I'm going to NOT marry someone who has the same values. My life will be better when I am obedient.

So, when I told Mister he could't afford me and that he wouldn't pay the cost to have me, that's what I meant. Not some purse or necklace that I could get for myself. I DON'T NEED that. I NEED  a man of God and cost and the men that I've met are not willing to pay that cost.

And I'm not sad because God's love is GREATER that what ANY man can do for me!!

I am and will continue to pay the cost to stay with Christ!!