It's been a long time since I stayed in the bed to watch a marathon show on tv. By the way, this is my favorite past time....chilling in bed with my favorite foods watching show after show after show....aaashhhhh, good times.
This weekend I had the opportunity to do just that.
Of course I don't have a bed and I don't have money to buy my favorite foods, but curling up on the couch with chips and dip was just as good. And my show of choice....SCANDAL.
Yes!! I've been hearing the buzz about this show and I'm partial to the oldies, but goodies....Law & Order, CSI, The Practice...I don't try to many new shows, but I was lured in and OMG am I glad. I literally stayed up to 4am Sunday morning finishing season 1. After church I got back home to get caught up on Season 2 and boy am I exhausted and exhilirated all in one. I can't wait to see how this plays out. That Olivia Pope has gotten herself into a bit of a pickle.....let's see how she will wiggle out of this one. Can't wait til the next show....
Monday, January 28, 2013
Friday, January 25, 2013
I BELIEVE
There is nothing like a miracle to reignite your faith and belief in God...
Lately, I've been a little somber because of my financial situation. I found that it was too late to apply for the job that would increase my salary by $6000 and looking at two overdrafted bank accounts put me in a bit of a mood. Especially since I didn't have enough money to get gas to drive to work (I took the bus and walked home, in the cold). So, as I was patiently waiting (I had not choice but be patient) for payday to come, I prayed and continued to thank God for a roof over my head. The temperature has been below zero and I would not have wanted to be sleeping in my car in this weather....so despite the black hole of poverty that I've been facing, I'm still thankful and grateful to God!!
Payday came and as I was totally my debts, I realized that I didn't have enough to cover all of my bills and pay the overdraft charges in addition to getting food to eat, so I just sucked it up and went to the bank, got out the money I needed to cover my debts. I looked up at the clock and I was late. I was supposed to be at the high school to work on a project after school, so I rushed across town. When I got there, I was rushing so much that I didn' pay any attention to anything. An hour later I was back in my car headed back to work when I realized tha the $430 that I had gotten out of the bank was gone....dropped out of my wallet. Tears were starting to come, but for some reason they wouldn't fall. I just kept saying to God, "You know I need my money....I was gonna pay my tithes.....I need a miracle." When I got back to the school, I was scouring the parking lot, trying to back track. I got to the door and a young girl opened it for me, "are you T*******?" "Yes, I am," I replied. "They got your stuff in the office." I was happy, but not too much. What exactly did they have in the office, my money or just my ID? (The whole bank evelope was missing with my license and my $430. I got to the office and everyone was happy to see me, "You missing something, ain't you?" "YES, MY MONEY," I replied. The secretary started to joke with me by just giving me my ID. I then told her that there was $430 that was with my ID. For a milli second I got nervous and then she handed my the envelope. She said an older lady saw it on the parking lot and brought it in. She then looked me up in the phone book and called me......
**** SIGH*******
I was so happy, I was thanking God!!!!! I COULD NOT AFFORD to lose that much money!!!!! OMG. THANK YOU, JESUS for smiling on me!!!! If a teenager would have found that money, I'm sure it would not have been returned. Thank God for good people. I pray for the woman who found my money, I pray a blessing over her life, I pray that what she done for me will cause restoration to come to her life. The Bible says that we reap what we sow and I pray that just as she sowed kindness to me by returning what was lost, kindness will be shown to her and restoration come to her 100 fold. In Jesus name, Amen!!
Payday came and as I was totally my debts, I realized that I didn't have enough to cover all of my bills and pay the overdraft charges in addition to getting food to eat, so I just sucked it up and went to the bank, got out the money I needed to cover my debts. I looked up at the clock and I was late. I was supposed to be at the high school to work on a project after school, so I rushed across town. When I got there, I was rushing so much that I didn' pay any attention to anything. An hour later I was back in my car headed back to work when I realized tha the $430 that I had gotten out of the bank was gone....dropped out of my wallet. Tears were starting to come, but for some reason they wouldn't fall. I just kept saying to God, "You know I need my money....I was gonna pay my tithes.....I need a miracle." When I got back to the school, I was scouring the parking lot, trying to back track. I got to the door and a young girl opened it for me, "are you T*******?" "Yes, I am," I replied. "They got your stuff in the office." I was happy, but not too much. What exactly did they have in the office, my money or just my ID? (The whole bank evelope was missing with my license and my $430. I got to the office and everyone was happy to see me, "You missing something, ain't you?" "YES, MY MONEY," I replied. The secretary started to joke with me by just giving me my ID. I then told her that there was $430 that was with my ID. For a milli second I got nervous and then she handed my the envelope. She said an older lady saw it on the parking lot and brought it in. She then looked me up in the phone book and called me......
**** SIGH*******
I was so happy, I was thanking God!!!!! I COULD NOT AFFORD to lose that much money!!!!! OMG. THANK YOU, JESUS for smiling on me!!!! If a teenager would have found that money, I'm sure it would not have been returned. Thank God for good people. I pray for the woman who found my money, I pray a blessing over her life, I pray that what she done for me will cause restoration to come to her life. The Bible says that we reap what we sow and I pray that just as she sowed kindness to me by returning what was lost, kindness will be shown to her and restoration come to her 100 fold. In Jesus name, Amen!!
Monday, January 21, 2013
#ObamaMLK
WOW....Inauguration Day and Martin Luther King, Jr Day.
This is some kind of history!!!
I just watched the Presidential Inauguration. It was exciting to watch the public inauguration on MLK Day. Sources say that the Bible used during the ceremony belong to Martin Luther King, Jr and Lincoln's Bible. I pray for the President as he takes his oath to provide the ultimate service to Americans and the world. I pray that God lead and guide him, I pray that angels watch over him and his family. In Jesus Name. Amen.
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Shaking in His Boots
"Can I have a hug," I asked confidently. He reaching for me...I put my arms around his neck and we squeezed each other as tightly as we could, standing there in the parking lot with oversized coats on.....The sun was shining brightly, the temperature was almost 60 degrees. An odd day for January.
I wanted to hold on longer, but I was surprised. He was shaking. At first I thoutht it was the cold, but I realized it was nervousness. I really really wanted to hold on to him until he stopped shaking, but we were out in public and it was kind of awkward....I let go and he did the same.
*REWIND to a day before*
My car was stolen and I had to get a rental. So I took advantage of that and decided to drive 3 hours to see Mister. I texted him that evening asking if he was busy on that Saturday. I then told him that I would be coming his way. He texted me back saying how EXCITED he was that I was gonna be coming to see him. He even said that he was shaking and apologized if he was spelling words incorrectly, but he really REALLY wanted to see me, so he couldn't contain his excitement. I was happy that he was excited, but cautious also, in which I told him. He said he understood.
I told him that I did NOT want to see his girlfriend, so I WAS NOT going to come into his apartment. He agreed to that and texted me this really REALLY long message that I did not get. Then he text me something about "where's my droid" app that I didn't understand until the next day....
Anyway, I got on the highway around 7:30am with the hopes of being in town around 10am. I texted him before I left and asked for his address. No response. I texted an hour later, "What is your address?" Again no response. A half and hour later, I called...Voicemail. WHAT???? I became concerned. I wasn't going to keep driving if plans had changed. So I called again and again no answer. So, I turned around. I had been driving for an hour and half and I didn't know if he still wanted to see me...So after driving back 45 miles, I stopped and got a call from him. He was sleep. I was livid.
WOW...some excitement. I mean, if I was excited to see someone, I'd be up at the crack of dawn getting prepared.
But, not Mister. He was sleep. He stayed up to 4am. I told him that I just turned back to go home. We talked a little while longer. I got a text from my boss asking me to come to work. OMG. I'm 45 miles from home, over 100 miles from Mister. What do I do....
I decided to forgo money to see him. Besides I handn't seen him in 5 years.
When I finally got to his place (3 hours later because I got lost and I stopped twice). I was happy to see him. He came down to my car and we both started talking at once.....*Smile*. I guess I was nervous too. I wanted to get out of the car and go to hug him, but I didn't want his girlfriend to see me. Plus, he smelled like smoke. I HATE the smell of cigarette smoke. He knows I HATE the smell of smoke.....I guess he was even more nervous when I was late getting there. I kidded him about not being awake. He showed me the super long text that he sent me detailing where he lived and then he explained the "where's my droid," text. Basically, if I didn't respond to him, I was supposed to text, "where's my droid" to his phone and it would send this shrilling sound for about 5 minutes. That would wake him up. In his super long text he also mentioned that it would be nice to have "sexual relations." WHAT?????
I was shocked!!!!!!
Did he think I was coming to have sex with him?????? Who said anything about sex. I wanted to walk around downtown. Sex was the last thing on my mind.
We decided to go to the art museum and when we got out the car, that's when we hugged. A good hug, a nervous hug, a "I miss you" hug.... He was shaking violently as we hugged which made me pull away. I wanted to hug the nerves away, but I didn't think I could, so I let go....not really wanting to....but I did.
As we walked to the door, his hand brushed mine and just like second nature, he grabbed mine and we walked hand in hand through the museum. I HAD A BLAST!!!! It was THE BEST DATE I've had in a LONG time...since, since, since.....
The last good date I had was January 2010 with Coach, which was not really a date, but kind of was....
Anyway, we spend the next 6 hours walking around the museum....We walked up to the LOVE sign and he asked for kiss. I wanted to kiss him, but the smoke....the cigarette smoke was horrible. We kissed anyway, but I couldn't enjoy it because the taste of cigarettes were still lingering on his tongue. Curse those cigarettes. My heart and my body wanted to enjoy it, but my brain couldn't get past the taste. Bleh.....
We would have spent more time together, but it started raining really really hard. My signal to leave. Thank God he sent the rain because I'm not sure if I would have been able to just leave on my own accord. I dropped him back off and walked him to the door. We hugged and kissed again. This time the cigarettes were gone, but I told him NOT to smoke if I see him again. He agreed. I ran back to the car and forgot......
I called him back to the car. He jumped back in and I gave him his present.....He would be celebrating a birthday in a few days and I wanted him to know that I didn't forget. After all these years...I still remembered. He girlfriend was looking out the window. He ran back in. As he went inside another woman was leaving. He hugged her...I pulled off.....
I'm glad I went. Now I realize that even though I love him, I'm not IN LOVE with him. I don't think I was ever IN LOVE with him. As a matter of fact visiting him helped me to realize that we acutally have nothing in common except for maybe....sex. Even though we had a good time hanging out...we still don't have much in common. He only went to the museum with me because that's what I wanted to do. He's not into that kind of thing at all....So, even though I wish the past was different between us, there is definitely no future.
I wanted to hold on longer, but I was surprised. He was shaking. At first I thoutht it was the cold, but I realized it was nervousness. I really really wanted to hold on to him until he stopped shaking, but we were out in public and it was kind of awkward....I let go and he did the same.
*REWIND to a day before*
My car was stolen and I had to get a rental. So I took advantage of that and decided to drive 3 hours to see Mister. I texted him that evening asking if he was busy on that Saturday. I then told him that I would be coming his way. He texted me back saying how EXCITED he was that I was gonna be coming to see him. He even said that he was shaking and apologized if he was spelling words incorrectly, but he really REALLY wanted to see me, so he couldn't contain his excitement. I was happy that he was excited, but cautious also, in which I told him. He said he understood.
I told him that I did NOT want to see his girlfriend, so I WAS NOT going to come into his apartment. He agreed to that and texted me this really REALLY long message that I did not get. Then he text me something about "where's my droid" app that I didn't understand until the next day....
Anyway, I got on the highway around 7:30am with the hopes of being in town around 10am. I texted him before I left and asked for his address. No response. I texted an hour later, "What is your address?" Again no response. A half and hour later, I called...Voicemail. WHAT???? I became concerned. I wasn't going to keep driving if plans had changed. So I called again and again no answer. So, I turned around. I had been driving for an hour and half and I didn't know if he still wanted to see me...So after driving back 45 miles, I stopped and got a call from him. He was sleep. I was livid.
WOW...some excitement. I mean, if I was excited to see someone, I'd be up at the crack of dawn getting prepared.
But, not Mister. He was sleep. He stayed up to 4am. I told him that I just turned back to go home. We talked a little while longer. I got a text from my boss asking me to come to work. OMG. I'm 45 miles from home, over 100 miles from Mister. What do I do....
I decided to forgo money to see him. Besides I handn't seen him in 5 years.
When I finally got to his place (3 hours later because I got lost and I stopped twice). I was happy to see him. He came down to my car and we both started talking at once.....*Smile*. I guess I was nervous too. I wanted to get out of the car and go to hug him, but I didn't want his girlfriend to see me. Plus, he smelled like smoke. I HATE the smell of cigarette smoke. He knows I HATE the smell of smoke.....I guess he was even more nervous when I was late getting there. I kidded him about not being awake. He showed me the super long text that he sent me detailing where he lived and then he explained the "where's my droid," text. Basically, if I didn't respond to him, I was supposed to text, "where's my droid" to his phone and it would send this shrilling sound for about 5 minutes. That would wake him up. In his super long text he also mentioned that it would be nice to have "sexual relations." WHAT?????
I was shocked!!!!!!
Did he think I was coming to have sex with him?????? Who said anything about sex. I wanted to walk around downtown. Sex was the last thing on my mind.
We decided to go to the art museum and when we got out the car, that's when we hugged. A good hug, a nervous hug, a "I miss you" hug.... He was shaking violently as we hugged which made me pull away. I wanted to hug the nerves away, but I didn't think I could, so I let go....not really wanting to....but I did.
As we walked to the door, his hand brushed mine and just like second nature, he grabbed mine and we walked hand in hand through the museum. I HAD A BLAST!!!! It was THE BEST DATE I've had in a LONG time...since, since, since.....
The last good date I had was January 2010 with Coach, which was not really a date, but kind of was....
Anyway, we spend the next 6 hours walking around the museum....We walked up to the LOVE sign and he asked for kiss. I wanted to kiss him, but the smoke....the cigarette smoke was horrible. We kissed anyway, but I couldn't enjoy it because the taste of cigarettes were still lingering on his tongue. Curse those cigarettes. My heart and my body wanted to enjoy it, but my brain couldn't get past the taste. Bleh.....
We would have spent more time together, but it started raining really really hard. My signal to leave. Thank God he sent the rain because I'm not sure if I would have been able to just leave on my own accord. I dropped him back off and walked him to the door. We hugged and kissed again. This time the cigarettes were gone, but I told him NOT to smoke if I see him again. He agreed. I ran back to the car and forgot......
I called him back to the car. He jumped back in and I gave him his present.....He would be celebrating a birthday in a few days and I wanted him to know that I didn't forget. After all these years...I still remembered. He girlfriend was looking out the window. He ran back in. As he went inside another woman was leaving. He hugged her...I pulled off.....
I'm glad I went. Now I realize that even though I love him, I'm not IN LOVE with him. I don't think I was ever IN LOVE with him. As a matter of fact visiting him helped me to realize that we acutally have nothing in common except for maybe....sex. Even though we had a good time hanging out...we still don't have much in common. He only went to the museum with me because that's what I wanted to do. He's not into that kind of thing at all....So, even though I wish the past was different between us, there is definitely no future.
What To Do?
My car being stolen put me in a financial bind. Actually, it wasn't just that...it's acutally me not paying my car note for six months have put me in a bind, but I couldn't afford the $100 I had to pay to rent a car that I needed last weekend. So, now I"m strapped. UGH!!!!!!!
I'm so SICK of blogging about money problems. I'm SO SICK of money problems.
Something HAS GOT TO CHANGE!!!! I KNOW I SCREWED MYSELF UP. BUT SOMETHING HAS GOT TO CHANGE.
I still have faith...I'm just venting that I am TIRED OF LIVING LIKE THIS....
I'm so SICK of blogging about money problems. I'm SO SICK of money problems.
Something HAS GOT TO CHANGE!!!! I KNOW I SCREWED MYSELF UP. BUT SOMETHING HAS GOT TO CHANGE.
I still have faith...I'm just venting that I am TIRED OF LIVING LIKE THIS....
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
I Have to HIDE my Car
My car was stolen.....AGAIN!!!!
I took a day off work on Friday because I was invited to go to Clinton. I got up, got dressed and went down to my car....AND IT WAS GONE!!!!
I was shaken...in disbelief. Almost in tears..
I called the police, called my insurance company, made a report and headed to the rental car place. I was VERY upset and slightly annoyed that this was happening to me again. I found out that since the two boys that stole my car before were teens, they were not held in jail. They were arrested, booked, charged, and let go to wait on a court date. WOW!!!! There was no bail set, nothing...because they were juveniles. The police went to the house of the two boys and found my car there Monday evening. Yep, it had stopped on them. LOL!!! The temperature here over the weekend was awesome...in the 60s, but by Saturday night it was in the 30s and overnight on Sunday, it was in the teens, so I was sure it wouldn't start. And sure enough, it didn't start and they had no choice, but to leave it sitting there, in THEIR YARD!!! I was so upset!! Here I am sitting in the driveway of the people who stole my car, my laptop, camera, backup drive, all of my stuff...Even the food from the food pantry was in my car this time. They still had my keys and I couldn't do anything, but pick up my car.
One police officer was kind of hostile towards me...."You have to pay the money to get the ignition changed, otherwise this is going to continue to happen," he exclaimed.
WHERE AM I GONNA GET $350 FROM?? I can barely pay for the car, let along to get it fixed!!!!
So now my car is in hiding. Yep, when I come home, I don't park in my parking lot I hide my car. It's not even on the street. I'm gonna get a cover for it too...If I can afford it. UGH!!!
Criminals....THEY NEED TO GO TO JAIL!!!
I was shaken...in disbelief. Almost in tears..
I called the police, called my insurance company, made a report and headed to the rental car place. I was VERY upset and slightly annoyed that this was happening to me again. I found out that since the two boys that stole my car before were teens, they were not held in jail. They were arrested, booked, charged, and let go to wait on a court date. WOW!!!! There was no bail set, nothing...because they were juveniles. The police went to the house of the two boys and found my car there Monday evening. Yep, it had stopped on them. LOL!!! The temperature here over the weekend was awesome...in the 60s, but by Saturday night it was in the 30s and overnight on Sunday, it was in the teens, so I was sure it wouldn't start. And sure enough, it didn't start and they had no choice, but to leave it sitting there, in THEIR YARD!!! I was so upset!! Here I am sitting in the driveway of the people who stole my car, my laptop, camera, backup drive, all of my stuff...Even the food from the food pantry was in my car this time. They still had my keys and I couldn't do anything, but pick up my car.
One police officer was kind of hostile towards me...."You have to pay the money to get the ignition changed, otherwise this is going to continue to happen," he exclaimed.
WHERE AM I GONNA GET $350 FROM?? I can barely pay for the car, let along to get it fixed!!!!
So now my car is in hiding. Yep, when I come home, I don't park in my parking lot I hide my car. It's not even on the street. I'm gonna get a cover for it too...If I can afford it. UGH!!!
Criminals....THEY NEED TO GO TO JAIL!!!
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Cautiously Excited
I'm applying for a new job. Yep, I'm gonna do it.
Financially, I'm in a bind and I need to dig myself out of this red dirt. So, that means I not only need to use my money more wisely, but I also need to make more money. Right now I'm making about $32,000, and the job I'm applying for make about $38,000. I can use an extra $6000 in my life. The only drawback is that my boss is VERY supportive of me and she is very encouraging and I'm apprehensive about leaving her. Of course the new position is with the same company, so I will still work with her, but not in the same capacity. Actually, I will be coordinating a program so it would be a "step up" from where I am now.
*sigh*
But, she has to understand. I mean, when she first started working her, she was simply a case manager and now she's a director. I sure she will understand. I just need to know how to do this tactfully. So, I'm excited, but at the same time I'm cautious because what if I apply for the program and I don't get it?? How will I feel?? I've never been in that position before where I work with the same people who reject me.... But, I have to go for it. I have to move up financially. I wonder if there are other people in the building who want to apply for the job too? I don't know how to handle that either. What if someone else in the builidng applies, gets the job and I don't?? I'm going to go for it!!
Financially, I'm in a bind and I need to dig myself out of this red dirt. So, that means I not only need to use my money more wisely, but I also need to make more money. Right now I'm making about $32,000, and the job I'm applying for make about $38,000. I can use an extra $6000 in my life. The only drawback is that my boss is VERY supportive of me and she is very encouraging and I'm apprehensive about leaving her. Of course the new position is with the same company, so I will still work with her, but not in the same capacity. Actually, I will be coordinating a program so it would be a "step up" from where I am now.
*sigh*
But, she has to understand. I mean, when she first started working her, she was simply a case manager and now she's a director. I sure she will understand. I just need to know how to do this tactfully. So, I'm excited, but at the same time I'm cautious because what if I apply for the program and I don't get it?? How will I feel?? I've never been in that position before where I work with the same people who reject me.... But, I have to go for it. I have to move up financially. I wonder if there are other people in the building who want to apply for the job too? I don't know how to handle that either. What if someone else in the builidng applies, gets the job and I don't?? I'm going to go for it!!
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