I've been in therapy because I have to get my mind right. And I believe if I can get my mind right, I can get my body and life right. I have a lot of regrets. I hate these regrets. I'm not sure why I can't shake them.
I quit making goals for myself because I was so disappointed in myself for not reaching my goals. The disappointment of failure plagued me so much that I stopped making goals. But in group therapy the therapist told us to make a mission statement based on values for the new year. I liked that so I'm gonna try it.
In order to do my mission statement I have to examine what I value....
Some things I value:
1) My relationship with Christ.
2) My health
3) Good relationships
4) My future.
So I have to craft a mission statement to include these values.
In doing this I have reevalute my behaviors. One such behavior is with men....
I met Adam online a few weeks before Christmas. I gave him my number and we started chatting December 26. We met in person on New Year's Day for dinner at his house. We had a good conversation. One January 7....
This is the behavior that I MUST change. I feel like he's someone I can be with. He's stable, believes in God (even though he doesn't go to church) he's not into drama, etc. I'm just tired of wondering.....wondering if I will ever be with someone. Wondering if anyone will ever love me like I love him.
But, despite this I will keep moving forward....
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