Con Artist: I'm Tired of Trying to Buy Love

Characteristics of Self-Hate:

Self-sacrificing

Putting yourself last

Over giving

Doing more that you are paid for

Under charging

Giving and throwing yourself under the bus

These are all things that Dr Venus Opal is saying in her series, "Hot Mess Millionaire."

I'm built for more!!! is what she says and I felt that!!!

I met the Con three years ago on POF. He was attractive and there was something about him....On his page he talked about where he worked and how he was debt free....I was intrigued, but I was also (don't know the word)....So we didn't move forward. 

Then in September I was on POF for a hot minute and we chatted. I'm not sure if he remembered me, but we exchanged numbers and friended each other on FB and started chatting. Things really got to rolling when we FaceTimed dated in October and then I sent him a full body pic of myself. About 10 days later I was in his house, in his bed....

It wasn't good. It was ok, not good. So we moved on. He left to work out of town and about 10 days later I got a FaceTime from him. He said he was stranded in Indiana and didn't have money to get home. He wanted to know if I could wire him some money. I sent him $250. He said he was gonna give me half my money back when he got back to town and the other half when he got paid. He got back to town, I didn't hear from him. Three days later I called him and he was down and out about not having money to travel back to Indiana for work. I loaned him $175. He was supposed to go to work at 3am, but the next day he was still in town. I was confused, but I didn't say anything. Four days later I texted him and he said he was depressed. He was supposed to get paid and give me back my money, but according to him he hadn't gotten his check yet. I told him to come over. He said he didn't have gas money and money to get groceries. Me in my self-hatred (trying to buy love) I offered him gas money so I gave him money for gas ($35) and $160 for food and he agreed to pay me back when he got his checks. 

That was almost a month ago. So far I've only seen $200 of the $620 that he owes me and he didn't want to pay me the $200. So now here I am looking stupid. 

He gets mad at me when I don't want to have sex with him. He gets mad at me when I say he's acting like a shyster. 

But I'm done. Yes, I NEED my $420, but I don't care if he gives it back to me. I just want to be emotionally free, spiritually free, mentally free. I want to quit getting with con men. 

Dr Venus and Apostle William Rogers, Jr says, "The real measure of success is how many times you get back up!!"

So I'm getting back up and walking away from this foolishness.