I'm Sad

I'm sad.....

Not, down sad, just sad....

A Right to a Speedy Trial

Mister went to court yesterday. The case was continued again to July.

WHY???

Because the prosecution is on maternity leave.

WHAT????

WOW is all I can say. I texted him back to say that this is absolutely ludicrous. He is one 24/7 home detention, living with someone for free, can't work, can't get his life back because someone is on maternity leave.

OMG!!! I was so upset. I can imagine how he feels. I mean being locked up with bonafide criminals for almost a month and then being couped up in an apartment for the last two months. WOW!!!

I would be a praying something. But, he refuses to believe God!!! I am a witness that God works miracles, but he is adamant that there is no God!! I just want to tell him so badly that he NEEDS God to intervene on his behalf!! But, he doesn't want to hear that. I mean, I understand it, but I don't.

Oh GOD!!!! What happened to the right to a speedy trail? Oh God!!!!

Seducing Spirit

I NEED a Man!! Okay, maybe I don't NEED a man, but I surely want one. OMG!! I NEED companionship. I NEED companionship!!! I've been chatting with Mister via text continuously and this is NOT a good thing. We've become closer and I can't not be in a relationship with him. I WILL NEVER WORK and I'm noticing that us communicating is seducing me. I look forward to the next time that we text. I can't wait to tell him stuff. It's becoming a BIG problem. I even mentioned to him about coming here. OMG!! What is wrong with me????? I can't be seduced into getting back with him. I have to cut it OFF NOW!!!! So, I need a man. I need a replacement. I even desperately went on facebook looking for people to talk to. OMG!!! I must be losing it. I AM NOT DESPERATE!!! Oh, Boy. Jesus, come save me from myself, PLEASE!!!

Being Selected is Good Enough

SUPERSTAR.....

I remember the first time I watched Mary Katherine Gallagher. It was TOO FUNNY!!! I cracked up over and over again. I love that movie.

I've felt like Mary Katherine a time or two. Not because I wanna be a superstar, but because I want to make a difference. As a matter of fact my goal in life has always been to be helpful and purposeful. I wanted to do something great. I wanted to BE great. And everything that I do is because I of that. Of course in being GREAT, I have to be humble. The Bible says that only God can make your name great. So, it's not anything that I do myself to make myself great, it's because of God.

But, this nomination for 20 Under 40 didn't feel right. At first I was really apprehensive about it, but then I started feeling puffed up and I didn't like that feeling. I want to stay humble. The Bible says to humble yourself and if a person can't humble themselves, then situations and circumstances will come and they will be humiliated to the point that it will humble them. I don't ever want to get to that point. Humiliation is NOT fun!!!

So, I declined the nomination. I just didn't like the puffed up feeling. I didn't like what I was starting to think about myself. I didn't know how I would feel when others saw the nomination. It just didn't feel right to me. So, I let it go and respectfully declined. Of course I feel a little sad about it because Mister wanted me to accept...his angle was that I should accept not just for myself but for all the people who are proud of me and for all of the people who I've helped and feel that I deserve the accolade. I get that.....

One of the questions asked is who has influenced me....and I was going to write about my mother and how all my life I heard about how smart and pretty she was and how I always wanted to be like her--smart and pretty :-).

So, I was going to accept just so that she could see me talk about that, but it's okay.

I will always cherish the fact that I was chosen. That's good enough for me!!!!!

My Mother Wants to Get Married

While eating lunch with the fam the other day, we started talking about vacations. My brother said he wants to go out of the country for vacation and to NYC. We all decided that a good family vacation would be Niagara Falls. We were getting excited and Mom says, "I don't wanna go to Niagara Falls with ya'll, I wanna go on my honeymoon."  WHAT???

What honeymoon??

Then she says, "That's why I want to get you out..." She was talking to my brother.

OMG

My mother wants to get married again. I guess I never thought about my mother wanting that. She's been divorced since 2000 and I guess in 15 years, you do want to have somebody with you. WOW, I was just shocked to hear her say it.

Anyway, we all decided that an alternative to Niagara Falls (since no one wants to be there on my mother's honeymoon) would be to go to Hershey, Pennsylvania. This is a place that mom has wanted to go to for years. And we were joking that we needed go before Hershey goes bankrupt (think Hostess Twinkies:-)

I think that may be a nice mother's day gift for my mom. Hopefully, with the money that I'm making, I would be able to help her out with that. I would LOVE to pay for her a trip to for Mother's Day.

Party in the Endzone

My brother graduated yesterday. It was a great day!!

We had lunch at LotaWata Creek. The food was good, but the portions were HUGE. My brother ate the Heart Attack burger. OMG. It serves four people and it's deep fried. Then the fries were served in a plate all by themselves. It was crazy.

During lunch everyone gave my brother advise to live by. I hope he listened to it because it was good advice. We were going to go to laser tag afterwards but we didn't have time. Graduation was a blast.

The school did a silly thing. Instead of lining the students up in alphabetical order, they lined them up by height. WHAT?????

So my brother, who's last name is Crayton, was at the back of the line because he is 6'4". We had to strain to hear people's names. It was such a silly thing. After all the students walked across the stage, they were trying to do the closing before the recession out of the stadium and a group of students started running which caused all the students to run to the endzone and they were celebrating in the end zone. No, they weren't supposed to do that, but it was awesome. It was like they had made the touch down and they were celebrating. Of course at that point it was no stopping them so the staff just let the celebrations go on. But, it didn't get better.....

Someone opened the gate to the field and the audience rushed the field. OMG. So, now you have students and staff on the astro turf football field in all types of shoes. NOT GOOD.

I don't know what it is about football fields, but I remember when I was teaching they would always talk about protecting the field. You couldn't walk on it. So, here there were hundreds and hundreds of people on this field. The principal was on the PA system trying to tell them to leave, but they didn't care. Eventually they had to call the police to get the people off the field. It was nuts!!!

Overall, it was a GREAT DAY and I'm happy for my brother!!!

$73,000

Go Gadget Go....I call myself Inspector Gadget because that's what I am. My title with the FDA is Inspector. And my one year contract is about $73,000.

Yep, that includes my salary and travel because I will be traveling throughout Illinois doing tobacco compliance checks. I will be inspecting any place within a census tract that sells tobacco products-cigarettes, roll your own, chew, spit, snus. I will also be checking advertising and labeling to make sure that they are compliant with all of the laws.

WOW....I don't know what to say about that contract. I've never made that much money in my life at one time. This will surely be a blessing.

Now I have to give my notice to the health dept. Dag, I wish I could keep both jobs. I will still fulfill my commitment of volunteering with ACS and ADA and even some of the other health dept programs because my schedule will be my own. I will use what money I can to get out of debt. I should be able to get out of debt in about 2 years if I can diligently budget. Of course my brother will be living with me and I hope I won't HAVE to move and I will be helping him with tuition, but I believe I can do it. As a matter of fact I know I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, so I pray for the strength of God to work diligently to get out of debt.