Happy New Year on the East Coast

I'm getting tired.....but, it's the New Year on the East Coast!! 2 Corinthians 5:17 New International Version (NIV) Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:[a] The old has gone, the new is here!

Not Gonna Fight It

I get a text from Mister, "Not drinking and I still love you."

He was basically making reference to the other day when he texted that he loved me. My initial response was, "are you drunk?" He confessed that he had been drinking, but that wasn't the reason for him telling me. Of course I think the alcohol had a little bit to do with it, also I think it was a bit of the holiday season. It can bring out a little melancholy spirit for those of us who are "lonely" and he had told me before that he was lonely. I caught a little bit of the "bah humbug" bug myself, but I got over it and had an okay Christmas. Now the New Year is here in about an hour and a half....so I texted him back that he made me SMILE. In which he replied, "You have a beautiful smile. Wish I could see it." So, I facebooked him a pic of me smiling. It wasn't the best pic espcially since my hair was all over, but my smile was cute. I then deleted it. I hope he didn't download it. So, while chatting with him, I decided I was gonna clean...actually, I was gonna clean earlier, but I was too lazy.

While cleaning I turned on my "sad love songs" playlist on youtube. Actually, I took all the sad sad ones out and just listened to love songs and a few other "pick me up" songs. For some reason my playlist got stuck on Ledisi Bravo.

It just played over and over and over and over. I wanted it to go on and play Daley Alone Together, but it kept playing Bravo. Finally, I just let it play. Apparently, now is not the time to be sad about love, I need to "celebrate." So that's what I'm gonna do. I'm not gonna be sad because I don't have anyone. I gonna go into the new year happy. If I stay up or not, I'm gonna be happy.  So, I'm not gonna fight the happiness. I'm just gonna let it play.....

Excitement

I was trying to post this entry using my new Smart Phone--the AT&T Fusion, but for some reason it wouldn't let me, so I went to work to get my laptop.....

But yesterday I was so excited about the new year. I've been bummed out lately--my car being stolen along with my laptop and other stuff, being sued, having no money, blah, blah, blah....and I wasn't ready for the new year. I was feeling down about the new year coming, but yesterday, my spirit changed. I'm sure it was God because I couldn't manufacture those emotions and now I'm ready. I'm not down anymore. I'm broke, but happy to close this year out. So, I couldn't post about my excitement, but I needed to tell somebody, so I texted Mister to tell him.

Yes, I've been chatting/texting with him lately. I'm not so happy about that, but I have been. The other day he texted me to tell me he loved me. I called him to tell him that I loved him too. No, I'm not gonna get with him. I'm not even IN LOVE with him, but I do love him.

Anyway, tomorrow is the new year and I thank God for making it this far. I'm going to take charge of my life and stay focused in 2013. It can only get better!!

*Post Script* I'm even more excited now because I just checked my bank account and I have enough money to get me some sparkling cider to toast in the New Year!!  THANKS YOU, JESUS!!

At the Mercy of the Court

I went to the courthouse to see who was suiing me. It's my bank that owns my car loan. I guess they sent me a letter in the mail, but because I don't get mail where I live, I never received it. They are suing me for the balance of my car and for their attorney fees of $500. They opened the case on November 26. I have since spoken to the bank manager twice and he has never mentioned it. As a matter of fact, I just got off the phone with him because my plan was to make a payment today. Why didn't he tell me he was suing me? WOW!! So, I wrote him a letter explaing my situation--being homeless, not having work, no health insurance, etc. I'm $63,000 in debt. And I NEED my crappy car to do my job. What am I gonna do if I don't have a car? I can't do my job. So I won't have a job. I'm gonna show up at court on Wednesday and let them know my situation. My goal is to have my car paid off by the end of February. That's if I pay about $500 per paycheck. I do'nt know what else to do.....

Nooooo, I'm not ready.......

The end of the year is coming too FAST. I'm not ready. And I can't stop it from coming. What am I going to do??? I'm sitting at my desk fighting back tears. I'm just sad and I know I need to just "get over it." My life isn't horrible, just in a little shambles. And I'm doing what I can to rebuild. I have a fulltime job, a nice place to live, a car and food in the refrigerator. I have my health and my mental faculties. Life is GOOD!! So, why do I feel so bad? Why am I letting money make me feel so bad? There is nothing I can do about the past, so why am I letting it make me feel like this? The only thing I can do is do better from here. I can't change what HAS ALREADY HAPPENED!! Get OVER IT!!! I need to prepare the for new year--emotionally. I don't work on Monday, so I'm grateful that I will have the time to get myself together.

End of the Year

Two years ago, I was living with a friend, totally broke. I didn't have two nickles to rub together (not sure where that saying comes from. LOL). Life is considerably better, but I'm not out of the woods yet. I still in MAJOR debt and owe $2500 on a car that needs MAJOR repairs, but despite it all, I am better than I was two years ago this time. I'm always reflecting on how I can get better and now is the time for me to GET OUT OF DEBT. My debt to income ration SUCKS big time. I've got a $50,000 in student loans and I only make $30,000 a year. That's upside down and backwards. So, I've got to get my rear in gear and make some more money, pronto. I've been listening to Dave Ramsey and he's a great motivation, so for 2013 I'm really going to buckle down and tackle this debt. I HAVE GOT TO!!!

No more Bah humbug

I wasn't in the mood for Christmas when I left work today. Especially since I left my food gift certificate at wotk. Dag, I can't go get my BBQ. However, when I started cooking and cleaning I really got into it. I fixed chicken stir fry with broccoli and brussel sprouts. Then I baked the corn bread for my dressing and made plans for the rest of the food. I really got into the Christmas spirit. Tomorrow morning, I gonna have mini breakfast quiche's with mimosas. The dinner menu has been modified Chicken/Veggie Stir Fry Chicken/Sausage Dressing Mashed Potatoes Sweet Potatoe Turnovers